stories of becoming
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late
something about the sun going down has me feeling mellow alone yearning not sure for what but wanting something a distraction? i’m reminded of an ig reel i saw today this guy said something like, for all you people out there who didn’t have an emotional connection with your primary caregivers… how is it wanting…
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soon day
‘so, are you gonna write a book?’ Stef asks this so innocently over the phone then adds, ‘it would make a great birthday gift… … … my birthday is this month’ lol she cracks me up. as if i didn’t know. i think one day, probably sooner than i think, i will work on a…
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ex act ly me
I got off the phone feeling mildly heated Annoyed Flustered Soul and I just had “discussion” around which salsa was the one they liked – they were at the farmers market and wanted to buy the one we had eaten a few weeks back. I felt like I had explained what I knew and felt…
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how the tables have turned
one of the things i find myself blaming myself most often for is ‘i should have known better’ i should have known better. it’s a hard path to walk, not that the path is hard, but i make the path hard because with that accusation, i take away the lightness and the freshness of the…
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sweet release
releasing always feels good you know what doesn’t feel good right up to it happening? releasing lol in those moments, it’s always so… tumultuous tormenting torturous all the t-words and then when i finally let go let in let out let all … more t-words it’s torrential okay i couldn’t think of more t-words to…
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cheers
i had lunch with a new friend somewhere along the conversation, she shared with me that she respects her dad so much, that she looks up to him to most out of everyone she knows i smiled, my heart warmed i responded “that is so beautiful to hear…” and i could hear the habit within…
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tears for another lifetime
i teared up today thinking about my dad in another lifetime happy, fulfilled, feeling loved.
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so hilarious it’s not even funny
it’s hilarious, isn’t it it is, to me the idea that i think i know something, think i know myself think i know period. example i thought i knew how to be and i did for a brief moment that moment being the moment i experienced myself fully and not a moment after just that…
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inevitable (r)evolution
i can feel things shifting it feels natural yet new new yet natural natural in that i’m not consciously trying to shift anything also in that it feels easy, meant to be, simple i feel like i’m just a vessel… aren’t we all? everything within that wants to be, wants to come through, wants to……
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just one
healing takes one person it takes one person to heal if you read what i write regularly, you know what i mean not that i write regularly but that you read what i write when i write whenever that happens to be lol anyway it’s quite a wonderful thing, that it takes one person to…
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so many tears
so many tears so much crying so many emotions not many thoughts not much intellectual understanding so much understanding at the cellular level so many things moving so many wounds healing so much liberation in the slightest shift from one moment to the next being able to hold myself through it all, and allow myself…