I don’t know anything. I thought I did. I thought that even if I didn’t know everything, I at least knew something. I thought I got it, had it. Whatever it is.
And then I’m brought to this place. A place of confusion, feeling lost, flipped inside out, upside down. But bigger than all the things I don’t know is what I do know. Or rather, who I know.
Everyday I’m hit with the fact that I am nothing, I know nothing, I have nothing. More today than yesterday, more tomorrow than today. It never ends.
And everyday I’m BLOWN out of the water by the ONE thing I do know, the one thing I do have, the one thing that consumes me whole.
The one thing, the one person, being… I won’t even say his name. I don’t need to.
He is all I see, all I hear, all I taste and feel and touch and know. I don’t get anything else. I don’t understand. NOTHING makes sense to me. Except this, him.
My every part is satisfied, every cell in me is unbelievably undeniably crazily in love and crazy alive.
I confuse myself everyday. I get myself lost and find myself tired and worried and hungry and blah.
And this one person I know, he holds me. He gets me. He gets me so well I don’t have to get it. I’m more than content knowing that I don’t know anything.
This has been a rambling entry. I don’t get it. Haha.
Whom have I in heaven but you. And earth for SURE has nothing I desire beside you. My heart and my flesh WILL fail. But you and you alone are the strength of my heart and my portion forEVER. Afreakingmen.
hahaha- i just realized i might have mistaken a grace kim for another grace kim (would you happen to be stef’s friend grace kim? i’m apple valley stef’s friend grace kim 🙂 hahah – well whichever grace kim you are – i was blessed by you! 😀
grace – this is grace, the other grace kim (arthur koo’s friend grace kim :))
i know it’s been a while, and we haven’t even talked so much, so it may seem so random & strange, but i just happened to start wordpress-blogging again, and found some gmail friends’ wordpress blogs. i’m sorry i didn’t mean to be nosy, but i started reading through your blog (your “welcome” note at the top was actually very welcoming!) and i just wanted to say, wow – God speaks through the randomest people at the randomest times through the randomest ways…
i wanted to say, i was blessed by your entries, and i especially like this one 😀
aaaamen to all your awesome “rambling” inspired by His love & Spirit 🙂
please keep up the encouraging entries – you’re a witness of His love by sharing it through your life’s stories online; how awesome is that! i bet our Father’s so proud and happy 🙂 God bless your beautiful family, and your ministry at the Ark!