I don’t know anything. I thought I did. I thought that even if I didn’t know everything, I at least knew something. I thought I got it, had it. Whatever it is.
And then I’m brought to this place. A place of confusion, feeling lost, flipped inside out, upside down. But bigger than all the things I don’t know is what I do know. Or rather, who I know.
Everyday I’m hit with the fact that I am nothing, I know nothing, I have nothing. More today than yesterday, more tomorrow than today. It never ends.
And everyday I’m BLOWN out of the water by the ONE thing I do know, the one thing I do have, the one thing that consumes me whole.
The one thing, the one person, being… I won’t even say his name. I don’t need to.
He is all I see, all I hear, all I taste and feel and touch and know. I don’t get anything else. I don’t understand. NOTHING makes sense to me. Except this, him.
My every part is satisfied, every cell in me is unbelievably undeniably crazily in love and crazy alive.
I confuse myself everyday. I get myself lost and find myself tired and worried and hungry and blah.
And this one person I know, he holds me. He gets me. He gets me so well I don’t have to get it. I’m more than content knowing that I don’t know anything.
This has been a rambling entry. I don’t get it. Haha.
Whom have I in heaven but you. And earth for SURE has nothing I desire beside you. My heart and my flesh WILL fail. But you and you alone are the strength of my heart and my portion forEVER. Afreakingmen.