It’s 3:45:30am and progressively progressing.
I’m planning to wake up at 5:40 to go to the rec center and swim. Maybe I won’t need to wake up. I don’t know how this will affect my day- I have no idea but right now. I don’t care. I’m okay with my day being crappy. I’m okay with falling asleep. I don’t know. I… just.
I just. I just.
Jesus, I have nothing to say but I will keep talking. I’m good at that.
I like you. I think you are more beautiful than a sunset and you know how much I love those. I think you are more amazing than the sky with all its crazy clouds and you know how much I love those. I think you are more constant than the tides of the beach and you know how mesmerized I get looking at them. I think you are better than life and you know how much I like to breathe this breath. I… just. I confess I have fallen in love with you. I have to. You have to know. Because. I do. I love you. I confess that I think only about you and when I’m not thinking about you… I still am. I confess that I’m blind to everything else. I confess that I’ve already left everything, I’ve thrown everything, everyone to the side because all I see… is you. I confess that I just.
I JUST. I JUST WANT TO HUG YOU. There. I said it. I feel better. I’m going to bed.