am so happy. Something makes me smile nonstop, makes me glad to be alive. I don’t know what it is and I think the real importance is not where it comes from or why but it’s just… that I am. I can’t even do my homework right now because I have to write this. I have to. I’m at Starbucks sitting by myself smiling like an idiot and I want someone to share in my idiocy.
This is kind of what it’s like. Take a second and answer: what do you love? What do you like to do? Or even who do you love? What makes you happy at any given moment?
Then imagine being invited to do exactly that as much as you want for as long as you want wherever you are with whoever you want. This is a horrible analogy. But to me that’s what it is. It’s someone telling me I have infinite and complete access and freedom to do what I want, love who I want. And it makes me happy to have what I want and want what I have.
Okay now I start homework. So freaking happy.
edit: I just realized my last entry and this one are the same. Like exactly the same. Oops.