Man, work is hard sometimes. It’s not the hours, even though I work more than the typical 40 hours a week. It’s not the people – they’re awesome. It’s not the commute – I sometimes find myself wishing it would last a little longer so I could finish my podcast or chill with my music.

It’s just hard doing something new a new way. It’s definitely not because of lack of effort. It’s a daily practice of focusing and letting it become a part of me so I don’t have to think about it to do it right. I miss little things here and there and I am so very grateful to my seniors for their patience and willingness to teach me not just hard facts but how to think and approach things for my own reference.

I feel like a novice and even more so, because I’m at the same level as people younger than me and behind those around my age. But I just need to keep going, eyes forward, head down. Which doesn’t anatomically make sense hahaha but it kinda did figuratively when I typed it. Eyes forward to keep direction and vision, and head down to get past the minutiae that would otherwise keep me stuck.

Little by little – but it just seems too damn little sometimes haha – little by little, one step at a time. I just need to learn to be consistent.

The little things.