Today was a perfect day.
It started yesterday. I had pumped my bike tires and gotten my gear out and ready so I can get going without too much thinking.
I got a decent amount of sleep. That’s the best, I’m realizing more and more.
I went on my bike ride to the beach, riding on the streets getting to the riverbed and at Seal Beach. That’s something I never thought I’d be able to do. Makes me feel fearless and scared shitless at the same time hahaha. How does that even happen hahah.
I got home, showered, ate, sat down to write, did not write, ended up talking with my mom and grandma and Jed. It was nice, just being a family, sharing good vibes.
I went to therapy with Jed. It was awesome. Seriously. The little brother is such an awesome human being. And I don’t know where I’d be without my therapist. It’s amazing to see both worlds collide.
The drive there and back was beautiful. I love driving.
Then Jed and I went to Starbucks and worked on stuff together. It was pretty sweet just hanging with him, or not really hanging since we’re both doing our own thing. We then ate lunch at Souplantation where portions appear minuscule and yet fill me up to the throat lol. The blueberry muffin was on-point as usual.
Then we headed back to Starbucks to work more. Or Jed took my car and went to get a haircut. I like being able to show him that I trust him. Because I didn’t use to hahah. My grips on him used to be iron and unforgiving. It feels amazing to let him be an adult. So we can be fellow adults. Though I’m probably more often a child than he is…
He eventually came back with his freshass haircut. We worked some more. Then my friend came to visit. He talked with my brother and got into what he might possibly do to figure life out and find direction. I cannot tell you how much that means to me, considering the potential I see in Jed and the lack of adults I think he has to reach out and get advice from. I mean, he talks to me sometimes but I’m just a sister.
Then we headed to dinner with my two very good friends, James and Bonnie. They got me protein powder, a sports bra, and sports top haha. The best! James also gave me a very thoughtful gift, one of the best gifts I’ve ever received.
Today was a perfect day for a few reasons.
I spent time with my brother and got to see him process stuff, learn, and grow. This means the world to me. I want him to succeed like no other, more than I want for myself. I almost feel like my success means nothing without his.
I spent time with people that care for me. On the way home, I felt loved. I felt like I could do no wrong in my people’s eyes. And rather than wanting to take advantage of it, like I used to think I would, I want to do more good, be more good than before. When I consider the people in my life, the people that surround me, encourage me, love me, push me, do life with me, I don’t think I can fail. It doesn’t make sense. And it’s not just the people I mentioned that I met up with today. It’s the text message conversation with Stef, the best friend, who has constantly been a light and energy in my life. It’s her comment on my blog posts. The fact that she cares.
It’s also eating good food, driving the freeway with the windows down, getting gifts hahah! All these things and more make today a perfect day. I’m satisfied. I’m glad I get to know what that feels like.