Saturday musings on this journey – 22/100

Life is easier than I once thought.

Kinder.

Sweeter.

Deeper.

Wider.

Brighter.

Lighter.

Happier.

smiling at beach
PC: Stefanie Lin Photography

More full of joy.

Hope.

Love.

Adventure.

Connection.

Exhilaration.

Purpose.

Peace.

Grandeur.

Possibilities.

Fun.

Freedom

More infinite. Ha.

All that I’d once expected,

burn it all to the ground,

disintegrate everything.

Everything.

Watch everything that had once been carefully curated, cultivated, and contrived

dissipate.

Fear, loneliness, doubt, even hopelessness will come.

After all, everything I once knew no longer is.

There’s no turning back.

I’ve come this far, let go of too much to go back and retrieve the ashes of a past life.

Then, in the silence, the quiet, the stillness,

it happens.

What’s true,

real,

good

arises.

In the most subtle, indiscernible ways,

in the way you can’t even see, taste, hear, smell, and feel.

But it does.

It always does.

And when it does, it is the most glorious thing.

The most.

Sometimes I can only weep (and it’s not pretty).

Sometimes I can only breathe deep and get lost.

Sometimes I smile and laugh by myself.

Just kidding.

All the time.

The road is lonely sometimes. Most times.

When the path disappears, I’ve learned to embrace where I am, those times I have no idea where I’m headed, where I’ll end up.

Here, I’ve come to know the deepest, greatest freedom.

I’m free, open, desirous of whatever comes through at these times, whatever rises from the ashes, whatever becomes clearer and clearer over time and patience.

Here, no one can tell me I’m off because there’s no path, track, trail to follow.

Just me.

Little me.

Full of life.

Not so little anymore.

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