Letter to the Universe Regarding My Partner

Dear Universe,

You are really funny sometimes.

Funny like fickle.

But also funny like heart-meltingly good that I want to cry but I’ll just laugh instead.

A little over a year ago, I remember being asked about my dating life and I replied with genuine giddiness and zeal,

I love my singlehood. I can see myself at 40, 50 and single. I can see myself enjoying life single. It’s been so good and I love it. I love the independence, the freedom, the openness. I’m good right here, with me.

A couple months later, I entertained the idea of exploring beyond the parameters I had been taught to play within.

As in, exploring romance with a non-male.

I gave it a go and it ended up being pretty good.

So good that,

A year later, I’m in a pretty exclusive committed relationship with that magnificent human I “gave a go”.

You are really funny sometimes.

The things I want so badly, so badly my stomach turns – I don’t seem to get.

Not a damn drop.

And the one thing I truly did not give a shit about – has become my greatest co-creation to date.

Truly my greatest.

If there was ever a masterpiece you and I ever conjured up in this lifetime thus far, it’s this.

It’s a partnership of fun, of adventure, of faith, of respect, of joy, of laughter (lots of laughter), of intimacy, of honesty, of Truth, of openness, of Love.

It’s a journey, an unfolding, an unraveling.

A closeness like I’ve never felt.

A sweetness like I’d never tasted.

A beauty like I’d never beheld.

You are really funny sometimes.

I thought being free meant being with me, all the time, every time.

I thought independence meant doing everything I want on my own time, detached from anyone and anything.

I thought openness meant being ready to receive everything you had to offer, with no one to stand in my way.

I thought I knew.

Ha.

If there’s one thing I know more than anything nowadays, it’s that I don’t know shit.

I see now.

I see that I am truly unconditional.

That this life is truly limitless.

That nothing stands in my way of everything I want.

That everything is for me, in service to me.

This partnership has taught me that I am the very essence of freedom, in or out of a relationship.

That I am whole as I am, not a part of a whole.

I have chosen and continue to choose every day, to love and be loved, to know and be known to the very core of my being.

And I can feel Life opening up to me,

I can feel the infiniteness of my being quietly residing within,

The great Love flowing easily and naturally and freely.

What a gift.

I didn’t even ask for it.

I didn’t even want it.

Or know that I wanted it, know that I’m meant for it, that it’s meant for me.

And here I am.

Falling, falling, falling more and more in love with this human, Jolie.

And falling, falling, falling more and more deeply in love with myself.

Who would have known, that someone outside of me would take me home to myself.

You are funny sometimes, Universe.

I like your humor.

Looking forward to your next move,

Grace

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