Fuck. This. Shit.

PC: Soul

Either the message is going to come through,

or I’m going to die.

I’m serious.

I’m here to share my message, and if it doesn’t want to come through, I’m not living.

I don’t give a shit about anything else.

If I don’t do what I came here to do, goodbye.

I’m out.

I don’t care to live life another way.

I don’t care to live life not being fully me.

I don’t care to take one more step without the message coming through.

I am fucking stubborn as fuck.

And I will not move another inch until the message comes through.

I am unavailable to not share my message.

I am motherfucking unavailable to not be me.

I don’t give a flying fuck whatever else is in my life.

I don’t give a rat’s ass anything else.

If I don’t do what I came here to do,

if I don’t be what I came here to be,

if I don’t have what I came here to have,

FUCK

THIS

SHIT.

I don’t need another breath, another day, another moment

to live MEDIOCRE.

No thank you.

Absolutely not.

Absolutely UN A CCEP TABLE.

HELL

FUCKING

NO.

If this is life, I’m leaving.

I’m done.

I don’t want to live.

I don’t need to live.

FUCK THIS SHIT.

If this is going to be struggle,

FUCK

THIS

SHIT.

No sir.

I don’t intend to live my life any other way but to show the fuck up FULLY,

to back myself,

to disperse my heart and soul into the world.

If it doesn’t have to be hard,

then DON’T LET IT BE HARD.

Let it be what it is,

nothing more,

nothing less.

I really don’t care to live this way.

The make-it-hard-because-hard-is-legit way.

The struggle-justifies-the-end way.

FUCK

THAT

SHIT.

It’s either easy or it’s not.

It’s either fully me,

fully splattered out in the world,

or IT’S NOT.

There’s no middle ground.

There’s no fine line.

IT IS

OR

IT’S NOT.

I am tired of hoping,

wishing,

looking into the horizon for a magic fucking pill.

I am tired of compromising my soul,

my heart,

for sweet nothings,

for security,

for safety,

for social acceptance.

None of these things actually matter.

Like NONE.

So here it is.

I give myself over to the message,

to the truth,

to the remembrance.

I give myself over to magic,

to LIFE,

to LOVE.

I give myself over to me,

to soul,

to the universe.

I give myself over to my purpose,

my mission,

my destiny.

I choose life on my terms.

There’s just no other way.

So it is.

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I'm here to be me because I think I'm pretty cool. Walk with me as I explore myself, the world, and everything in between. I also curse a lot.

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