Humans are interesting beings.
Wouldn’t you agree?
We can be both alive and not living.
Living and not alive.
We encompass the spectrum of life, experiences, personalities,
which sometimes seems contradictory.
My favorite contradiction of being me:
I don’t know why I’m capitalizing those words, but here I am.
The greatest intersection.
The idea that we are static,
the inclination for us to be “stable”
like WTF IS EVEN THAT.
The aversion to change,
blows my mind.
Blows my mind that that once was my safety.
I tried to keep shit same, so I could understand it,
understand my life,
understand how to be with me,
with everything coming my way,
And benchmarking things against what I knew so I could know how to move forward.
I find it quite hilarious now.
Because the truth is,
the motherfucking fact is:
we are living breathing paradoxes.
We are both ever evolving
But we only experience that when we GO IN.
When we drop in,
to the truth of us.
Until then, we live on the surface of life,
floundering to understand
WHO WE ARE,
HOW TO BE,
our place in the world,
what something means to us,
and how to feel about it.
Until then, our basic state is survival,
because the world is a dangerous place,
a perilous battle field where the main mode of being is protection,
protection from our own evolution,
so we can more easily maintain our relationships –
cuz you know you don’t wanna get too far ahead of our people –
so we can more easily maintain our lifestyle –
cuz you know you don’t wanna go creating a different track from what you’re used to because –
For what do we, as the intersection of humanity and divinity,
truly, the expression of the divine,
the MF SUPERNATURAL,
do we shy away from the BEING and the BECOMING?
What is worth holding onto?
What about the paradox of who and what we are is so fucking scary that we don’t want to ACTUALLY LIVE AND BE ALIVE?
ACTUALLY GO DEEP ENOUGH INSIDE,
DOWN DOWN DOWN IN THE DARKEST ABYSS
TO ACTUALLY FIND OURSELVES –
NO, **REMEMBER** THE WHOLE FUCKING GOD-NESS WAS WITHIN US THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME?
What about that is so unbearable that we reject our birthright to CREATE our lives?
Not get by on the mercy of a seemingly fickle GOD that grants us our prayers if we
pray hard enough
do more enough
be more [insert whatever you feel is required of you to be just OKAY]
believe hard enough
be more of a light
Are you tired of that shit?
I got tired just writing it.
I had to look away in the horizon and not watch those boring words materialize on my screen.
I’m parked at the beach, so not too hard to look that way anyway lol.
But you get the point.
I’ve got too much life to live to IGNORE THE PARADOX OF MY HUMAN-NESS AND MY GOD-NESS,
to neglect the PERFECTION that I am
the PERFECTING of my life and person.
I just can’t.
There so much life and greatness to live,
I can’t bear living linear,
living cause and effect.
And thank God,
praise the LORD
that that isn’t the way we were meant to live.
Unless you believe otherwise,
and you move through life horrendously contained,
unwilling to see differently,
or just explore. Period.
The pleasure of life is in the living of the paradox.
The knowing that we are so much more than we had been taught.
More than what we even today think is remotely possible.
The abyss within,
the seemingly impossible labyrinth of ideas, potentials, beliefs,
the truth is –
it’s really quite simple.
No one is asking you to figure that shit out.
No one is asking you to write a fucking book about it.
Your job is to actually do the fucking job of being you.
It’s not to maintain your relationships?
It’s not to take care of other people?
And it’s not to accomplish great things.
It’s not to have a beautiful family.
It’s not to raise well-mannered children.
It’s not to travel the world.
It’s not about being cultured or sophisticated.
It’s not about being well-read.
It’s not about being considerate.
It’s not to have meaningful friendships.
It’s not to attract and keep a soulmate.
It’s not to be a humanitarian.
It’s not to change the world.
It’s not any of these things.
They are the natural flowing EXPRESSION of someone who knows who and what they are, truly.
And they have no tolerance to live another way.
Someone who lives in the paradox, the intersection of what seems impossible and unattainable to someone who doesn’t, does amazing things,
creates amazing things,
builds kickass meaningful relationships,
does unthinkably authentic shit.
THAT is a life worth living.
It’s a life that is BURSTING AT THE MF SEAMS WITH LIFE ENERGY,
HARNESSING THE GROUNDEDNESS OF HUMANITY
THE MOTHERFUCKING MAJESTY OF THE ETERNAL, THE INFINITE, THE GOD-NESS.
or not surprisingly,
lives inside us.
It’s not something to ATTAIN,
something to WORK TOWARDS,
something that needs to happen over many moons.
It’s just a truth of who we are.
It’s as simple as knowing it.
And then believing it.
and then knowing it.
And you can just watch how your life and world RESPOND to you,
the YOU that is EMBODIED with ALL OF YOU.
Where your body and mind and heart and soul are UNMISTAKABLY ALIGNED,
IN CAHOOTS WITH EACH OTHER,
And you’re ready for it.
The world is ready for YOU TO BE YOU.
Well, you’ve always been you.
The world is ready for YOU TO FINALLY ACCEPT YOUR PARADOX.
The world is ready for you to SEE.
It’s a calling.
And it’s not for the faint-hearted.
It’s for the mothafuckin adamant,
the ones that CAN’T WON’T live another breath without knowing, being, breathing what the actual fuck they are,
the ones whose faith leads the way,
the ones who are unavailable to JUST GET BY.
The ones who believe EVERYTHING they are meant for is REAL,
EVERYTHING they feel and DESIRE are REAL,
REAL enough to seek, to move toward, to believe, to become,
so real, everything else falls to the wayside.
Goodbye fake life,
goodbye fake ideas of how to be,
goodbye stupid rules that never made sense to the deepest parts of us.
And especially, goodbye to the US that bought into it all,
that we thought was integral to the lives we wanted.
and good riddance.
The real You.
The no holds barred,
The YOU that you must birth to become.
Because that shit isn’t default, I tell you.
Even though, it’s the nature of who we are,
we choose it into being.
We choose it into our expression.
And from there, THAT YOU takes over.
And the rest,
the rest is history.
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Not for the faint-hearted.
I say that again because it’s worth saying again.
You know when you reach that point of FUCK THIS SHIT.
It’s a powerful place to be.
To me, that’s what it takes,
to consciously begin this evolution,
because an evolution it surely is.
And you drive it.
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