Keeping the peace while compromising yourself is not peace.
Believing something for the sake of believing something is not faith.
Anything done, said, be’d outside of the integrity of your soul is exactly that –
outside the integrity of your soul.
And whatever you feel you gain from it is a load of bull.
However you perceive yourself to be because of ‘keeping the peace’, ‘taking the higher road’, etc. is not only false but lame.
I don’t know what’s worse,
being false
or
lame.
There is nothing greater than a being in integrity with her soul.
There is nothing sweeter than that,
nothing wiser,
nothing truer,
nothing deeper.
And yet, you spend so much of your life creating a fortress built on the skeletons of lies and basic-ass defense mechanisms.
The worst part is, the defense mechanisms themselves are the things that perpetuate victimhood, the continuance of the very things you want no more of.
Without the full participation of your soul,
without the full integration,
the full choosing,
the full backing of your soul,
you are lost.
Everything you do from that non-soul place is just an attempt at healing,
an attempt at growing,
an attempt at evolving,
an attempt at safety,
security,
confidence,
peace,
joy,
love,
etc etc etc.
And surely a sad one at that.
Attempts are, in themselves, sad.
They are the futile clawing at something glorious,
trying to recreate something good and true that already exists within,
outside,
using human intellect,
logic,
ego.
Nothing wrong with those capacities.
They’re just not the things with which to live your life.
Your life is a testament to that.
Every negative situation you attempt to make the best of,
dissolve,
overcome,
release,
defend,
deflect,
power through,
is a reflection of a lack of alignment,
integrity,
conscious connection with soul.
Even if there is peace on the surface of your relationship, of the situation,
there is a war waging within you.
And that war has NOTHING to do with anyone else.
Has absolutely NOTHING to do with the situation.
Has EVERYTHING to do with you living from soul,
saying the shit you know is true to you,
actually listening to the quiet voice within,
the one that is the farthest thing from bullshit, if not on another fucking dimension.
Has EVERYTHING to do with doing the thing you know you need to,
to take care of you,
to be honest with you,
to be able to look yourself in the goddamn mirror and actually like yourself.
Fuck the peace,
fuck the maintenance of things that want to go to shit anyway,
fuck trying,
fucking sacrificing,
fucking COMPROMISING your SOUL.
You don’t have time for this shit.
And you keep perpetuating the relationships that bring you to your knees, because, surprise –
you do exactly what needs to be done to keep those relationships in place.
Where did you learn that another’s happiness,
another’s okay-ness,
another’s safety,
another’s security
another’s peace, love, joy, faith,
is more important,
more significant,
more ANYTHING than
YOU?
Than the YOU THAT SHOWS UP IN THE RELATIONSHIP IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE?
Where did you learn that?
And why?
Why was that taught?
Why was that received and learned by you?
To fit in somewhere.
To make sense to what already exists.
But not to live into who you are.
Not to create a magnificent life.
Just a normal one.
One where you maintain an illusory sense of okay-ness,
for the promise of okay-ness,
so that you can stay a part of the okay-ness,
and raise your children, should you decided to have some, to also become the okay-ness.
Rather than rip your heart out for the world to see,
rather than bare your soul to the ones who taught you to be unseen,
rather than actually be responsible to who you are.
A part of this makes sense to me.
For some time.
But I’ve decided it actually doesn’t, not now.
Because I believe the hellfire and brimstone and whatever else was preached against sinners is actually the fate for those who
CONTINUE TO CHOOSE THE VICTIM CARD
FOREGO THEIR GOD-NESS
RENEGE ON THEIR SOUL CONTRACT
BREAK INTEGRITY
for WHAT?!
Is there ANYTHING you think would be worthy of bringing to God, at the end of your life, to explain why you chose again and again to lie to yourself, lie to everyone around you, lie to the world in the face of the universe and SOUL THAT KNOW YOU,
why you opted out of your alignment and truth?
Is there anything that would cause Her to say, You’re right, you did the right thing. I commend you for your decision to stfu and play a fool in the story where you are the main and only character. You’re right.
No, not likely.
Because God vested ALL OF HIMSELF, HERSELF, WHATEVER IN YOU.
Without reservation, hesitation, conservation.
Literally, you ENCAPSULATE GOD.
You are the spitting image of him.
You have your personality, your quirks, so that we can have some diversity on this here planet.
But underneath it all –
You Are God.
God CHOSE to be contained within YOU.
And you have the fucking NERVE to compromise your heart, your soul?
Don’t get me wrong.
God isn’t mad.
She will never be.
You will learn your lesson again and again and again and again until you learn it, over lifetimes.
But in this moment, if you know you are fucking yourself over for the false idea of a noble intention or “higher good”,
you are truly playing yourself.
There is no fucking higher good without YOUR HIGHER GOOD.
It doesn’t exist.
Higher good is higher good is higher good is higher good.
Shall I continue on?
The world’s higher good is HUGELY reliant on YOUR higher good.
Your self-suppression,
self-sacrifice,
self-neglect
is NOT becoming.
It is quite ugly on you.
Firstly, because you are trying to pass a falsehood for truth.
Secondly, your betrayal ages you, depreciates your being.
You are still magnificence and awesomeness,
but when you don’t believe in it enough to stand for it,
then you are depreciating before your eyeballs.
And at the end of the day, you are no better off for having lived for the benefit of someone else.
You are actually worse off.
By a lot.
So quit the bullshit.
Quit the lying, the playing, the downright betraying.
Listen, listen, listen.
Listen in.
Remember your soul has something to say,
it will teach you who you are,
and from there, you will learn how to be.
Your peace will flow from within,
like a motherfucking river on a spring day.
Or is it summer?
Whatever.
Your peace will flow and you will see the truth of it.
Let it take over.
Your life depends on it.
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and you want to drop it down into your heart,
so you can reach your soul,
and receive the gift of Life and Love which reside within,
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