
releasing always feels good
you know what doesn’t feel good right up to it happening?
releasing lol
in those moments, it’s always so… tumultuous
tormenting
torturous
all the t-words
and then when i finally let go
let in
let out
let all
…
more t-words
it’s torrential
okay i couldn’t think of more t-words to relate with releasing loll
but it’s an outpouring
so sweet
so full
so everything in that moment.
ooh,
it’s tender.
there we go.
transformational
here we go
trailblazing
ooh, this one’s softer, and maybe a little dramatic but…
thunderous
you know what i mean?
i mean in the moment, whatever is being released is the ONLY thing on my mind
fuck everything else
and i can see,
truly deeply completely
see feel hear receive
the truth that has always been
is
and always will be
letting it wash over me
is a drug
a feeling of utmost bliss,
utmost presence
utmost holiness,
coming in direct touch with energy from which we all come from
the thing i find so sweet and frustrating…
is that it happens in its own time,
in my own time
when i am fully ready
usually when i’m at my wit’s end
on the ledge, ready to let go
actually, only the second i let go of the ledge,
does the release flow through…
interesting, as i think back to everything i wrote,
how…
similar it is an orgasm lol
they are all releases in the end
starting from a place of desire
building onto itself from friction
climbing into anticipation
climaxing into unknowingness
a sense of freedom
relinquishment
goodness
settling into the silence
the void that was filled with feeling
so much feeling
my god
no wonder i love crying
no wonder i welcome the release
no wonder i don’t even try to hold back
it’s inevitable
if i agreed to be on this journey,
it’s going to happen.
and at this point, i usher it in
there’s nothing else to do
there’s so much goodness on the other side of it,
so much goodness surging forth from within
and it’s my absolutely pleasure,
privilege,
right
to indulge in all that is me
all that is in me
and more.
life is sweet.
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