so many tears

so many tears so much crying so many emotions not many thoughts not much intellectual understanding so much understanding at the cellular level so many things moving so many wounds healing so much liberation in the slightest shift from one moment to the next being able to hold myself through it all, and allow myself […]

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mom

about ten years ago, i had an ‘incident’ i was very involved in the church, serving as a teacher in high school ministry. i had amazing relationships with my students, sophomore girls. i knew they saw me a friend that they deeply respected i.e. someone with ‘authority’ who never pulled the authority card. i loved […]

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threads

it feels like such an interesting time for me right now i feel like i’m coming face to face with more layers of myself than i knew existed but when i see them, it also doesn’t surprise me there were hints and breadcrumbs of these layers all throughout my life and i’m just now piecing […]

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making nothing out of something

i think i used to think of alignment (with higher self, source, god, etc.) as a thread, a very thin thread that i was to wrap my thoughts, words, actions, essence around, to connect with All That Is, to tap into my ‘true nature’, etc etc etc. like the thread is a certain standard, a […]

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the voice & me

this conversation with god/universe/who knows came through this morning. enjoy. voice: You don’t need to meditate as much as you think you do… moving throughout the day being aware of Being… is enough. That’s everything. Everything flows from that place. You are familiar with that place, yes, still… Inquire within, is this true? me: i […]

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road ragin 4eva

Road rage is a daily part of my life Well maybe not daily Since I don’t drive every day But you get what I mean Curse words pop out of my mouth as easy as breathing Judgements about others not using their blinkers Or driving just over speed limit in the left lane Or hesitating […]

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new Now

life is insane it is so real so fucking real the things we desire, the goodness we look for, the love we want, the everything we want to attract… it’s all real. it’s not just the real deal, it IS the deal. it IS the whole damn thing. the whole damn thing. i had a […]

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equations

the idea of ‘selfish’ as a legitimate adjective for anyone or any action is feeling more and more antiquated. there truly is nothing in life if not to live in integrity, in accordance with one’s truth, one’s desire, one’s happiness. i’ve heard someone share in conversation that he and his wife compromise and sacrifice so […]

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dad, you suck less now

my dad called on wednesday i missed it i texted him, saying i’d call him after work i did not i texted saying i’ll call him the next day i did not i thought to put it in my calendar i did not i called today evening it’s friday he answered after a couple rings […]

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we are free

i remember learning about the pineal gland and its role in awakening, its connection to consciousness i also remember learning that fluoride was a chemical blocker, something that calcified the pineal gland, preventing people from awakening, seeing the truth, etc etc etc i remember being told that the ‘evil’ forces of the world (lol) made […]

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letting go

i once participated in a year-long feminine leadership program. it was led by two females coaches. on one of the monthly 1:1 coaching calls, i shared about a recent experience with my dad or maybe it was an older memory about my dad, i don’t recall but basically, the experience i shared was one that […]

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