We came here to learn some very important lessons

October 22, 2020.Reading time 17 minutes.

The 4 habits of ambitious people The 8 qualities of successful people The 25 things to do before 7am if you want to have a perfect productive day The BLAH BLAH BLAH How about the 100 reasons why you’re not supposed to live your life according to bullet points? Let me let you in on […]

I Once Thought I Was The Problem L O L

October 20, 2020.Reading time 15 minutes.

I once thought I was lazy, unmotivated, unempowered, incompetent, petulant, too stubborn for my own good, and various other things to explain why I never did what I was supposed to do, what the world told me a successful human being would do and be. I just couldn’t bring myself to do certain things, no […]

Being American…

October 19, 2020.Reading time 19 minutes.

Here is what I know. There is a lot I don’t know. And from that place, from my observations and personal learnings, I know this about the country I live in. This is not meant to be political – God knows I would just be obliterated in a political conversation. This is just the observations […]

I choose even when nothing seems to come from my choosing

October 15, 2020.Reading time 17 minutes.

I sometimes stare at the blank screen in front of me feeling like I have nothing to say. All the while, believing and actually knowing that there is a universe inside of me. Knowing that I am a unique voice of the Divine. Knowing that my gifts are to be shared. Knowing that my presence […]

Everything in Life Begins with Being

October 14, 2020.Reading time 14 minutes.

As a teenager, I used to ponder the idea of something amazing happening, like winning the lottery or meeting the PERFECT boyfriend-material person or having the perfect body or having the funnest most excitingest tight group of friends, and feel depressed. Even back then, in my adolescent angsty years, I felt the dissatisfaction, discontent, whatever-ness […]

National Coming Out DAy, Eh?

October 11, 2020.Reading time 4 minutes.

I heard it’s National Coming Out Day. For me, it’s less about my sexuality, more about how and who I am as a whole Person and Soul. And part of that comes out as a female in a romantic relationship with a non-binary person. To me, Coming Out is a daily thing, expanding beyond sexuality. […]

Give Into the Mess That Is Life…

October 10, 2020.Reading time 4 minutes.

Here we are – yesterday’s makeup (just me lol lookit that mascaraaaa bahaha), didn’t brush teeth before bed last night, didn’t shower, didn’t wear pj’s to bed, slept over Soul’s Dad’s place because we (mostly me heehee) didn’t want to do the 20 min trek home and the getting ready for bed routine. I would […]

Life Flow is Love – It’s Why Everything Is Always Working Out For You

October 9, 2020.Reading time 15 minutes.

My partner is not who I expected. My partner is not what I expected. My partner doesn’t look like anything I’d ever imagined I’d ever want. My partner doesn’t act like anything I’d ever expected for myself. My partner is so many things I just couldn’t have guessed. And so ironically, my partner is so […]

My Soul Flow – Do You Hear Yours?

October 9, 2020.Reading time 9 minutes.

I’m sharing my journaling from today. It is my soul flow and if any part of it resonates with you, I invite you to claim it as part of your soul flow. There is no me or mine. It’s all ours. Resonance is an indication of your truth being tickled, awakened, spoken to. Receive it. […]

Shouldn’t You At Least Look Like You’re Trying?!? No.

October 8, 2020.Reading time 14 minutes.

It is perfectly fine to be where you are today, in this moment. To be fully right where you’re at – is perfectly fine. It’s perfectly perfect. It’s meant to be. Sometimes that level of surrender scares me because I wonder – If I accept *this*, whatever this is in the moment, something I don’t […]

Dodging Bullets of Triggers

October 6, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

The other day, I had an experience that took me straight back to my teenage years. No detours, no scenic route, no smell-the-roses pathway. Straight back to a part of what I would consider my hellhole-of-a-time teenage years. It was triggered by Soul, my partner, and Stef, my best friend, becoming close. Stef, if you’re […]

When It Comes to the Condition of Your Heart and Soul – Take No Shit

October 5, 2020.Reading time 15 minutes.

It’s really never about the other person, is it? We’d just love to make it so. But if we choose to be absolutely no holds barred real with ourselves, the triggers and frustrations and injustices and pissed-off-ness is not about the others. To the egoic part of us, admitting that it’s not about the other […]

Our destiny unfolds when we choose to be all of who we truly are

October 2, 2020.Reading time 14 minutes.

There are no rules to being you. There is only choosing or not choosing to be all of you. Everything else is noise. Rules and conditions work extremely well for machines, logic, and the mind. Not so well for the pure free-flowing spirit and energy within. Not so well for the fun-loving child in all […]

Every Single Human on Earth Wants One Thing

October 1, 2020.Reading time 18 minutes.

Just the other day, I heard someone say (that rhymes lol), “Humans just like to do bad things to themselves.” Interesting thought, isn’t it? Is that true? I mean, is that REALLY true? Yes, it’s true that humans appear to do things that hurt themselves. Yes, it’s true that humans appear to do bad things […]

I Do What I do Because I’m Free to Do It

September 30, 2020.Reading time 15 minutes.

I just want you to know today: I didn’t want to write today. Before typing these words, I spent an hour on Instagram, laying on my bed, scrolling through, tapping on almost all the links selling protein powders, and watching Tiktok compilations. Before that, I had taken a nap. I knew I wanted to write […]

You Never Need to Justify Your Desire for More – Ever

September 29, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

Trauma is not required for spirituality. All the ‘bad’ things in our experience don’t justify our reaching for our ‘good’. Life doesn’t have to suck in order for us to ask for better. We can want good just because. We want good BECAUSE that’s what we are. We’re coded to expand and evolve endlessly, spilling […]

I would rather look selfish than be out of integrity with my soul

September 28, 2020.Reading time 17 minutes.

Ever been called selfish? Or been afraid to be called selfish? Seen as selfish? Known as selfish? Let me tell you something. I’m about to drop the punchline right at the beginning. On your deathbed or at the pearly gates, you will be held responsible for one thing and one thing only – how you […]

SURRENDER IS A SIDE EFFECT OF KNOWING YOUR GOD-NESS; NO NEED TO FORCE IT

September 26, 2020.Reading time 15 minutes.

I just had a conversation with one of my favorite people in the world, my partner, Soul (pronouns-they/their). They were sharing with me a new awareness of the idea of SURRENDER. It’s a big idea in the spiritual community. It’s an idea that’s thrown out as advice to people in a hard place, not knowing […]

You didn’t come here to be another rat with another thing

September 25, 2020.Reading time 19 minutes.

When you feel like things are not working out for you, when you feel like you’re doing all the things and it’s not getting you where you want to go, or even moving in the direction that you’re intending, when you feel STUCK and steeped in the SUCK, STOP. Stahp. Staaaaahp. Stahp it all. Stop […]

God Never Stops Speaking to Us – We just Forget We Can Always Listen

September 24, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

Several years ago, in the early years of my inward journey, my mom told me: if you stop listening to and heeding the Holy Spirit, it/he/she/whatever will stop speaking to you. I am here today to call out that mad bullshit. It is my duty to lay it out once and for all. My self-appointed […]

Lean Into the Thing that Brings Out Your Worst

September 23, 2020.Reading time 18 minutes.

The beautiful thing about romantic relationships is there is nowhere to hide. Actually, that sounds like the scary thing about relationships lol. Here’s what’s actually beautiful about it. Shit gets real when there’s nowhere to hide. That sounds scary too lol. Basically, the rawness of who you are and where you are at in life […]

God’s Will is Never Outside of Your Deepest Truest Desires

September 22, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

The life we live is ours. Somewhere in my past, I learned that my life was not mine. That I was a steward of it, and it really belonged to God. In the sense that she possessed it and had a will and destiny for it. It fueled a sense of sacrificial living. Since I […]

There Are Zero Rules on How to Life – YOU DECIDE

September 21, 2020.Reading time 17 minutes.

I’ve always done it my way. IT being my life. Maybe in the beginning of any new way of being, process, etc., I’ve sought out and listened. to others. But I consider that the perfunctory, obligatory step, the one that comes before I shrug and go on with the show – my way. I’ve always […]

Your Oneness w/ Yourself = FREEDOM

September 19, 2020.Reading time 15 minutes.

The indication of a self-actualized person is not accomplishment, awards, money, renown, possessions, connections, power, intelligence, wisdom. All those things are probably present within a self-actualized person. But that’s not an indicator, a hallmark. Transparency, to me – at this time – is the measure of self-actualization. Transparency is, in the words of Dr. Joe […]

Join Me in Remembering Your Badass Self :)

September 18, 2020.Reading time 1 minute.

You know I love you, right?And that I think you’re badass?And that I think, no, I Know you, in your natural state, are a badass.But sometimes even I forget I am one myself.And so I’m creating a space to drop in and allow the most appropriate and ordained authority – our soul – remind us. […]

I Felt Like Shit

September 18, 2020.Reading time 9 minutes.

Today, I felt like shit. I felt sad, disappointed, lonely, frustrated, angry, annoyed, what else… lame, stuck, blah. A lot of blah. Blah blah blah. All I wanted was to feel not blah. Not any of it. I didn’t really understand why this stuff was coming up. As I lay on my bed, on the […]

I Knew, If I Wanted More, There HAD to BE More

September 17, 2020.Reading time 9 minutes.

I write from my soul. I write from my heart. I write from my soul because I live my soul. I trust my soul. I know my soul. I believe in it. I know it. It hasn’t always been like this. Nope. It’s been quite different. It’s been a life of living outside of me, […]

I Promise – You Didn’t Come to Live a Life Defined by Your Mind

September 15, 2020.Reading time 8 minutes.

You are the perfect person to live your life. YOU are the perfect person to live your life. You ARE the perfect person to live your life. You are the PERFECT person to live your life. You are the perfect person to live YOUR life. You are the perfect person to live your LIFE. Alllllll […]

There’s Nothing to Fix About You

September 14, 2020.Reading time 17 minutes.

Procrastination is not the issue. Laziness is not the issue. Greed is not the issue. Nor anxiety, overeating, bulimia, depression, worry, fogginess, lack of direction, disinterest, boredom, rage, frustration, mediocrity, loneliness, powerlessness, helplessness, fear, poverty, wastefulness, broken relationships, toxic relationships. None of these are issues. Not the Real issue. They are indicators. That’s all they […]

Read This to Come Back to Your True Self

September 13, 2020.Reading time 17 minutes.

I don’t get it all. I don’t get most of it. I don’t know much. I haven’t experienced all the things in the world. I’m just me. I’m all me. The thing that is for me is to just be here. To be all me. To be with me. To know me. To see me. […]

When You Say Yes to Soul, Life Only Gets Better

September 13, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

When you go all in on you, when you trust who you are, when you believe and know that your desires matter and are meant to come true, when you live in that knowing, Life can ONLY BE GOOD. When you choose to be All That You Truly Are, Life can ONLY BE WHOLE. When […]

Are You Living a Certificate Life or a Real Raw You Life??

September 12, 2020.Reading time 18 minutes.

There is nothing pretty about living a pretty life. We are not here to live acceptably, decently, understandably, etc. We are here to live life as we are meant to live it. That blueprint exists only inside of every single person. Only in every single person that ever existed, that exists, and that will ever […]

It’s Hard to Live Life NOT Being All of You

September 10, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

What you desire, desires you. By your desiring it, you create it in your vortex, in the quantum. It begins existing the moment you think of it. We think it’s not “real” because it’s not in physical reality (yet). But the truth is, its “real-ness” is not dependent on it existing in physical reality. It’s […]

You Choose How Deeply You Want to Live Life

September 9, 2020.Reading time 18 minutes.

Life is happening. Right now. All around you. Especially within you. You are the center of it all. The intersection between the explainable and the inexplicable. The crux of the human and the divine. You. You, the gorgeous awe-inspiring creature, you. Absolutely perfect. Your ways, your journey, your thoughts, your beauty undetectable by the naked […]

The Best Part of Life is That You Actually Do Know How to Live It :)

September 8, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

You don’t have to know anything except the fact that you do know. That, you do have to know. Because when you do, everything falls into place. And it’s more of a choosing, that you do know. A deciding. A this-is-just-what-it-is-and-that’s-it-ing. An I’m-unavailable-for-it-to-be-any-other-way-ing. Otherwise, you’ll be forever looking at the heavens, beseeching the gods or […]

Until You Do This, You’re Missing the Whole Freaking Point

September 5, 2020.Reading time 17 minutes.

Until you listen to your soul, you clearly have not done the thing you’re meant to do. You know it. It’s obvious. Obvious is the way you feel BLAH, fuzzy inside, uncentered, desiring but not being fulfilled, unhappy. There’s nothing wrong with any of that. In fact, those are experiences to be GRATEFUL for. They […]

All Your Soul Wants is You!!

September 4, 2020.Reading time 19 minutes.

The truth about who you are lies beyond the mirror, beyond your relationships, beyond your experiences, beyond your personality, beyond your desires, beyond your dreams, beyond your ____________. The truth of who you are lies in YOU. It’s such a squishy thing to say, how does one then understand, encounter, know the truth about oneself? […]

Your “Higher” Calling is Not an Excuse for a “Harder” Life

September 3, 2020.Reading time 18 minutes.

Bullshit. I hate this hypocritical sacrificial sabotage. Your path is difficult because you made it difficult. Because you bought into ideas and concepts that were taught to you by well-meaning adults. And now you’ve identified so much with them THAT YOU THINK THEY ARE YOU AND YOU ARE THEM. Your path is difficult because of […]

You Are Responsible For Becoming Who You Are Meant to Become

September 2, 2020.Reading time 21 minutes.

You are the law of your life. I’m really sorry. By that, I mean I’m really not sorry. At all. But the rules and laws you’ve governed your life around – they’re bullshit. The concepts of expectations, obligations, considerations for others, for the greater good… all of it – bullshit. I’m sorry (I’m not sorry). […]

If You Don’t Own Your Flow, You Will Never Live It

September 1, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

No need to chase flow. Not being in flow is not the issue, I assure you. The idea that you are not in flow, that is not available to you at any point you desire, that it is arbitrary, that the flow is outside you – alllllllllll bullshit. The release, the breakthrough, that effortless being-ness, […]

You Are Craving YOU, the You That IS the Soul

August 31, 2020.Reading time 19 minutes.

I am the center of my universe. You are the center of yours. The construct of the world we experience and perceive exists in us. ONLY in us. There is nothing outside of our perceived perception. And that can be a scary thing, because then… there’s no objective truth. There’s no objective God with an […]

Life is listening, Watching, and Responding to You – all the time

August 29, 2020.Reading time 22 minutes.

Whatever it is you think you need in order to [ insert whatever it is you want to do and have and be in your life ] is an excuse to not believe it’s available, and thus, not possible for you. Life is responding to you. It’s like little children who hear the bad words […]

Spirituality is NOT Modest

August 28, 2020.Reading time 17 minutes.

Spirituality is not modest. Spirituality is not quiet, submissive, subdued. Spirituality is the wildest thing you will ever experience, encounter, BECOME. I once thought spirituality and religion were expressed by lessening myself, diminishing my desires, relinquishing power over my life, giving everything over to God. Well, that last bit, still stands. But the rest – […]

You’re Welcome for Me :)

August 27, 2020.Reading time 22 minutes.

I am a delight to behold. World, you’re welcome for me. Universe, you’re welcome for me. God, you’re welcome for me. And thank you 😉 Everyone, you’re welcome for me. I understand it is quite an honor to know me, to be in my energy. I get how exhilarating it can be. It just is. […]

Your Greatness Is Not Enough

August 26, 2020.Reading time 22 minutes.

Let’s be real. It’s not enough that you ARE Powerful. Eternal Infinite Cosmic Unconditional Creative beyond your wildest imagination Glorious Magnificent Majestic in ALL YOUR BEING. It’s just not enough. Sorry. Not sorry. Really not sorry. It’s quite an amazing thing to BE ALL THESE THINGS. But the THING that TRULY FUCKING BLOWS IT ALL […]

Opt Your Ass Back In To Your Soul

August 25, 2020.Reading time 19 minutes.

Keeping the peace while compromising yourself is not peace. Believing something for the sake of believing something is not faith. Anything done, said, be’d outside of the integrity of your soul is exactly that – outside the integrity of your soul. And whatever you feel you gain from it is a load of bull. However […]

The Pleasure of the Paradox that is YOU

August 24, 2020.Reading time 23 minutes.

Humans are interesting beings. Wouldn’t you agree? We can be both alive and not living. Living and not alive. We encompass the spectrum of life, experiences, personalities, which sometimes seems contradictory. My favorite contradiction of being me: Perfect and Being Perfected. Oowee. Arrived and Arriving. I don’t know why I’m capitalizing those words, but here […]

Always Move in the Direction of Your Soul – You Will Not Be Disappointed

August 23, 2020.Reading time 23 minutes.

I never knew my life could be this good. So fucking good. But then, I did know. It’s why I followed every single freaking thread, every single nudge within, every single hint and clue and thought and belief that I believed came from soul. It’s why I said yes to what was within again and […]

I Would Rather Die

August 21, 2020.Reading time 23 minutes.

As an 8 year old, the earliest I can remember, I asked myself: How do I live this life? When I asked that, I was standing on the blacktop outside of my classroom. It was recess. I was facing the big open space for us to run around in, play. I felt no desire to […]

You Have Chosen Exactly What You Are Today

August 20, 2020.Reading time 23 minutes.

I once met someone involved in an MLM (Multi level marketing). Let’s call her Mary. Someone else had connected us because she found out I was starting a coaching business and she felt Mary would be a helpful resource. This was in the very very infancy stages of my coaching/guiding/whatever business. Grateful for the connection, […]

The Stories You Tell Are Lame In Comparison to the Person You’re Becoming

August 18, 2020.Reading time 19 minutes.

The thing is, life is not about the story you tell, the things you did, the places you went, the people you met. Yes, they add to the story, yes, they’re fun to talk about, yes, they’re fun to listen about, yes, they are PART of your story. But we didn’t come to this planet, […]

Walking in Faith is Not for the Faint-Hearted

August 17, 2020.Reading time 23 minutes.

To walk in faith is to walk in love. It’s to walk in trust. It’s to walk in the unknown. It’s to walk in the unknown… knowing. That’s the kicker. Walking in faith is seeing NOTHING that even minutely, to ANY degree resembles the end destination, the life we desire, the person we hope to […]

Your Job is to Love YOU

August 16, 2020.Reading time 16 minutes.

I am so in love with my life. I am so in love with me. As I type, I see my reflection in the computer screen, as I watch the letters on the screen appear. I once thought the idea of loving self as immoral pride, unspiritual, ungodly. That it meant I was taking away […]

STOP FUCKING AROUND, WORKING SO HARD, AND DENYING WHO YOU REALLY ARE

August 14, 2020.Reading time 18 minutes.

I wish I could tell you I got my body to this point by working out hard or sticking to a diet or counting macros or following a program. I wish I could tell you it was that easy. Because honestly, I’m quite proud of what I see in the mirror. Call me vain, but… […]

Whether God is Near or Not is 100% Up to You

August 14, 2020.Reading time 14 minutes.

I don’t know what to write. But I also do. So, which is it. Well, since I’m writing now, I must know what to write. Interesting. Even as I wrote, I don’t know what to write… I was writing. So, I did know. Which means, even when I don’t know, I do know, even if […]

I be knowing some shit about life

August 14, 2020.Reading time 9 minutes.

I have things to say. Things to do. Places to go. I’ve created a life in which I follow my heart and soul, live from within, answer to not much else but God and myself. Many times, I think to myself, I have no idea what I’m doing. But many more times, I feel it […]

Your Body Tells You The Story Of You. Your Body Doesn’t Lie.

August 14, 2020.Reading time 28 minutes.

You can’t really tell in the photo but I was struggling with my weight and my body. A lot. I didn’t gain a massive amount os weight, but I knew in my heart of hearts, I was deeply dissatisfied with myself. I was skinny in high school, super fit, with a way low body fat […]

The Thing You Think You Need to Become You Isn’t What You Think It Is

August 12, 2020.Reading time 12 minutes.

Fuck affirmations Fuck the processes Fuck the “it takes time” – okay maybe not all the way lol. We live in a physical world and sometimes there’s some catching up to do that may take what we like to call “time” Fuck the idea that it needs to be hard or challenging Fuck “doing the […]

Is This You??

August 12, 2020.Reading time 7 minutes.

“From birth I was cast upon you,From my mother’s womb you have been my God.”Psalm 22:10 The moment I read this, I knew this was me. I knew in my heart of hearts, this was exactly what I had been seeking all my life, as a KID. I knew I was not JUST a human […]

ENOUGH. ENOUGH. ENOUGH.

August 9, 2020.Reading time 15 minutes.

‘I’m proud of you.’ Words that hit home deeper than ‘I love you’, sometimes. Words that disarm our guard, melt our need for protection, dissolve our hell-bented-ness for justification, validation, approval. Sometimes we just need to hear those words. We just want to know that we are worthy of praise, not just love (though in […]

Projecting, Much?

August 7, 2020.Reading time 15 minutes.

Did you know life is actually VERY simple? Like almost infuriatingly simple? Like ridiculously simple? Like so simple you want to go back in time and slap yourself for not knowing how simple it actually is? God really is an artist for putting this whole show together FOR us to live, enjoy, master, and thrive, […]

Fuck. This. Shit.

August 5, 2020.Reading time 8 minutes.

Either the message is going to come through, or I’m going to die. I’m serious. I’m here to share my message, and if it doesn’t want to come through, I’m not living. I don’t give a shit about anything else. If I don’t do what I came here to do, goodbye. I’m out. I don’t […]

Believing Beyond Feeling

August 3, 2020.Reading time 6 minutes.

I woke up this morning feeling groggy. Out of it. Blah. Bleh. Meh. I couldn’t get a foothold on myself, my center. It felt like I had no energy, no vision. I couldn’t see beyond the funk. And I wanted beyond the funk. I wanted to feel the energy I know I am, the energy […]

We Are The Crazies

July 27, 2020.Reading time 7 minutes.

Crazy has been demonized. It’s been not okay to be crazy. To be out of one’s mind. It’s been not safe. It’s been not normal. The really crazy thing is the idea of normal. I was taught growing up to be logical, to do what’s right, ultimately what would allow me to make sense to […]

Truth of the Day

July 24, 2020.Reading time 6 minutes.

Pulled from my journal this morning. Man it was flow. So good. So full, delicious, so flow. I command the universe. The universe loves to meet me where I’m at. Life LOVES to meet me where I go. I am 100000000000% supported in my desires BECAUSE I CAME HERE TO LIVE THEM. That is WHY […]

I Don’t Need to Take Care of the Middle, The Problem, the How

July 22, 2020.Reading time 8 minutes.

I have this tapestry. My best friend, Stef, gifted it to me for my birthday. It’s a picture of the beach, right by the edge of the shore, with a million dollar view of the sun setting? rising? near the horizon. I love it. She (Stef) gets me. Out of all the objects I have […]

What Does Absolute Trust Look Like?

July 9, 2020.Reading time 3 minutes.

Pulled from my journal this morning. Everything is in caps because that’s exactly how I wrote it lol. Enjoy! I’M RELAXED AND RELAXING ALL THE TIME. I KNOW EVERYTHING IS WORKING OUT FOR ME. I KNOW MY DESIRES ARE WORTHY OF ME AND I AM WORTHY OF MY DESIRES I WALK IN CONFIDENCE KNOWING THAT […]

How to Not Care When People Tell You What They Think But You Didn’t Ask (It’s Not What You Think lol)

June 23, 2020.Reading time 9 minutes.

People love to talk. I like to talk. I love to talk. But some people like to talk A LOT. And I’m not just talking volume. I’m talking big talk, judgy talk, full of their perspective talk, not really conversing or interested in what I think talk. Like my mom. She’s really harmless. But she […]

The Micro-(r)evolution

June 19, 2020.Reading time 10 minutes.

I did a Facebook live earlier this morning about how all it takes to get from our HERE reality to our THERE desired reality, is… Faith. Damnit though. Why does it have to be so wispy, so intangible? Faith is for the spiritual, the woo-woo, the devout, the religious. No, you fool. Faith is for […]

Blissed the Fuck Out

June 17, 2020.Reading time 8 minutes.

From the pages of my journal: riffing on the life I’m living and creating. I felt some kind of way sharing this. It feels super vulnerable, super too much, super just out there. But at the same time, why not? Why not bare it all? What is the difference between sharing the depths of my […]

Time to play in my sandbox

June 8, 2020.Reading time 9 minutes.

I’ve spent a lot of life playing in other people’s sandboxes. Other ideologies. Other perspectives. Other’s desires. Other’s thoughts. Other’s values. Not that I took them on as my own. But I’ve spent a lot of life considering them, turning them over in my hands, my mind, my heart, deciding whether I would like to […]

I Am Willing

June 1, 2020.Reading time 4 minutes.

I am willing to see. I am willing to see things differently. I am willing to align with my Highest Self. I am willing to evolve. I am willing to expand, to encompass new dimensions, to integrate new eternal truths. I am willing to go all in on me. I am willing to believe and […]

I am about Me

May 28, 2020.Reading time 7 minutes.

When I was a wee freshmen in high school, I made it a routine to buy a bagel and cream cheese, take it to the gym locker room (I had first period PE), and eat breakfast with a friend. It had been clearly communicated that there was to be no eating in the locker room. […]

The only version: Me

May 14, 2020.Reading time 2 minutes.

There is only one version of me. I am the only me that ever was, is, and will be. So, who or what can tell me who or what I am? Who defines what is good or right or best for me? I have lived long enough – I would almost say too long, but […]

We know God as we are

May 7, 2020.Reading time 8 minutes.

I’d always been confused by the incongruences and inconsistencies of the Bible. I couldn’t understand why and how the Bible, the source of absolute truth, didn’t make sense in today’s world and time. If it was so timeless and impeccable, how come so much of it doesn’t make sense or fit into today’s narrative? Why […]

That young girl & me

April 7, 2020.Reading time 13 minutes.

I went down memory lane. I’m not sure how I found it or why I felt compelled to go down it. But I did. This memory lane is lined with the titles of my blog posts, with the days, months, years of publication, scattered with the words of a young girl, a young woman, really, […]

Gratitude and me

February 25, 2020.Reading time 9 minutes.

Gratitude. I feel gratitude. It feels like fullness. Like the vessel of me, my physical body, the container of my thoughts, the essence of my being is FULL, touching, pushing against the edges of who and what I am. It doesn’t matter what I’m grateful for. There’s a knowing that the logic, the thoughts, the […]

Love, a horrible thing

January 7, 2020.Reading time 15 minutes.

Love is a scary thing. Don’t do it. The risk is too big. The fall too hard. Love is a horrible thing. It makes you do weird things. Crazy things. Stupid things. It makes you become someone new. You stop knowing who you are. Sometimes people don’t recognize you anymore. Love is a terrible thing. […]

A heart full of fuck yous

December 27, 2019.Reading time 9 minutes.

I woke up yesterday to annoyance frustration blah-ness fuck yous. I could sort of identify where it was coming from. But I could feel it more. I could feel more of the suffocation, the fuckedness, more than I could think about it. The past decade has been spent going inward, leaning into my heart, the […]

Leaving

November 21, 2019.Reading time 6 minutes.

I recently moved out. Like last week. I am 30 years old. And this is the first time leaving my parents’ home. Like really leaving home. Not staying weekdays at university. Not studying abroad. Leaving home. Driving last Friday night with my car packed, I felt emotions. Lots of them. I felt tears but I […]

Some morning words

November 12, 2019.Reading time 3 minutes.

I’m not sure what it is I want to write, what wants to flow. I guess I’d like to start off with: I am in love with this life. Enamored. Captivated. Over the moon. This is the best thing that’s happened to me, and it keeps happening. Every day. Every breath. Every moment. The amount […]

Onward ho

October 10, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

I told my dad about my relationship with Jolie. 3 months ago. A little over 3 months ago. On the way to the airport, right before I left for a work trip for 10 days. I didn’t plan to make it seem like I was running away after dropping the bomb on him. It just […]

Effortless union

September 4, 2019.Reading time 9 minutes.

Life as beautiful as me, Love as beautiful as you. We make a good couple, duo, pair. Hand in hand, step by step, breath by breath. Looking into each other, into the abyss, the bliss of who we are, the perfection, completeness, the completion. Calling forth of the other, rising up within ourselves, meeting in […]

These damn millennials

August 23, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

I got a bone to pick. A small one. A little teeny tiny one. But one that’s been digging into my side for a bit. Like a few years. This bone has to do with people’s perspectives on millenials. A few days ago, as I was waiting for my food to heat up in the […]

Holy Pavement

August 19, 2019.Reading time 7 minutes.

I came home from work today ready to go to church. My body yearned to move, itself and the energy within. It didn’t matter what time it was, that I had work to do, that I had driven over an hour to get home, that I was tired, that I hadn’t eaten dinner, that – […]

No more right

August 15, 2019.Reading time 5 minutes.

I carried out a vendetta against my mom for many years. In the later years, we didn’t brawl, like we used to. But I harbored some stuff against her, her motherhood. Stuff like, feeling like she didn’t give me what I needed as a child, feeling like she had abandoned me when I was going […]

Being Me

August 12, 2019.Reading time 3 minutes.

There’s something special about being human. Something raw beautiful majestic magnificent significant. There’s something magical about being human. Feeling all the feelings, knowing all the knowings, choosing all the choosings. There’s something wonderful about being human. Tasting all the wonders, drinking all the sweetness, eating all the deliciousness. There’s something truthful about being human. Melting […]

My Friendship with Trump

July 25, 2019.Reading time 12 minutes.

I’ve been sitting on this post for almost a week now. I think it’s time to set it free and be okay with it. ———————- I’m not super politically savvy and I don’t keep up with the news a lot. Just what I glimpse in the hotel gym rooms, newspapers in coffee shops, news via […]