I'm tired of fitting into boxes. Tired of "making things work". Tired of withdrawing because I'm afraid of losing my space, my time, my energy. Tired of "protecting" my space. Tired of feeling like I need to justify my space and what I want. Tired of "letting go", learning not to attach myself. I'm tired… Continue reading Just like my Creator
Five years ago, I was out in Barcelona studying abroad and sending photos of my experiences and adventures to my ex. I prefaced my photos with: Sorry, I'm horrible at taking pictures. He immediately responded: You are brilliant and everything you do is fucking fantastic. I blushed at that, so aware of my melting heart,… Continue reading Blooming remains
I realized I've been sabotaging myself. I sleep late because I want to "catch up" with work. I don't actually catch up. I find myself getting distracted with other to-do's, scrolling through Instagram. I tell myself I deserve it, after a full day's work. So then I set my alarm for very early the next… Continue reading My lie of “catching up”
Me: Mom, I have something to tell you. Mom: What? Silence Me: It's kind of hard to say. Mom: What? Silence Mom: Just say it. Me: I know... but... Silence Me: I'm dating someone Silence Me: Not a man Mom: ? Me: I'm dating that friend I brought over a couple months ago Silence Mom:… Continue reading I told my mom I’m dating a non-male
In my life, I consider the moments of moving in faith, "jumping the cliff". Like quitting my job, letting go of a 4-year crush that I thought would be the relationship of my life (HAHA), things like that. I have no idea what's at the bottom, if there is a bottom. I have no idea… Continue reading Leaving the nest – Pt. 1
I learned something a while back that's improved the quality of my life significantly. It changed the way I see things, relate with people, and drive. Yeah, drive. Like driving a car. That one thing I learned: Not everyone knows how to drive. That's it. And to go further: Not everyone will ever learn to… Continue reading Bad driving is fine with me
Looking up at the sky today, I was mesmerized by the wispy clouds against the blue background. Super gorgeous day. I could see the clouds slowly unfurling and meandering, nowhere to go, nothing to do. Gazing at the vastness, enjoying the warmth of the sun, I had a sudden feeling that I was in a… Continue reading Are you home?