Category: Faith and Spirituality

  • new being

    new being

    i thought i knew what it meant to ‘be with myself’ or rather, the concept of ‘being with myself’ has evolved, to the point where the concept i once knew looks nothing like what it is coming to mean / be today. back then, being with myself looked like being with my thoughts, mulling over…

  • deliverance

    deliverance

    on the first leg of the journey to bali, i watched a movie and a half first one was a hilarious korean movie about north and south korean army dudes that tried their best to split a winning lottery ticket lol idk if it was actually that hilarious because… well you know me i can…

  • main character

    main character

    i remember being 8 years old or so 3rd grade standing outside on the asphalt recess time gray sky, gray clouds hanging around i remember standing look out into the sky kids playing on the monkey bars, running around recess monitor walking around, hands clasped behind them and me standing alone looking out pulling from…

  • mom

    mom

    about ten years ago, i had an ‘incident’ i was very involved in the church, serving as a teacher in high school ministry. i had amazing relationships with my students, sophomore girls. i knew they saw me a friend that they deeply respected i.e. someone with ‘authority’ who never pulled the authority card. i loved…

  • making nothing out of something

    making nothing out of something

    i think i used to think of alignment (with higher self, source, god, etc.) as a thread, a very thin thread that i was to wrap my thoughts, words, actions, essence around, to connect with All That Is, to tap into my ‘true nature’, etc etc etc. like the thread is a certain standard, a…

  • the voice & me

    the voice & me

    this conversation with god/universe/who knows came through this morning. enjoy. voice: You don’t need to meditate as much as you think you do… moving throughout the day being aware of Being… is enough. That’s everything. Everything flows from that place. You are familiar with that place, yes, still… Inquire within, is this true? me: i…

  • new Now

    new Now

    life is insane it is so real so fucking real the things we desire, the goodness we look for, the love we want, the everything we want to attract… it’s all real. it’s not just the real deal, it IS the deal. it IS the whole damn thing. the whole damn thing. i had a…

  • we are free

    we are free

    i remember learning about the pineal gland and its role in awakening, its connection to consciousness i also remember learning that fluoride was a chemical blocker, something that calcified the pineal gland, preventing people from awakening, seeing the truth, etc etc etc i remember being told that the ‘evil’ forces of the world (lol) made…

  • Let’s Cry Together! Lol

    Let’s Cry Together! Lol

    Lately, I’ve been emotional. Like crying a lot. There’s nothing specific that I’m crying about again and again. I’m just crying when I feel things. And honestly, I am super loving it. I spent all of my high school through college through young adult years through my 20’s martyring myself –  without knowing it, as…

  • Rewrite My Past

    Rewrite My Past

    After reading a section of the book Earth, I felt a desire to work with my timelines and rewrite my past in relation to my parents. I pondered, which part of my past with my parents did I want to rewrite? I thought back and realized, my parents have loved me well. I truly feel…

  • My Freedom Belly – It’s a New Forever Thing

    My Freedom Belly – It’s a New Forever Thing

    Sweet liberation. I have a confession. It’s something I’ve been sitting for half my life – I’m 32 now. If you do the math, it started when I was in high school, sophomore-ish. I wanted to be seen, desired, liked. No, that’s not the confession. I would do things that would make me look a…