What Does Absolute Trust Look Like?

Pulled from my journal this morning. Everything is in caps because that’s exactly how I wrote it lol. Enjoy! I’M RELAXED AND RELAXING ALL THE TIME. I KNOW EVERYTHING IS WORKING OUT FOR ME. I KNOW MY DESIRES ARE WORTHY OF ME AND I AM WORTHY OF MY DESIRES I WALK IN CONFIDENCE KNOWING THAT […]

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The Micro-(r)evolution

I did a Facebook live earlier this morning about how all it takes to get from our HERE reality to our THERE desired reality, is… Faith. Damnit though. Why does it have to be so wispy, so intangible? Faith is for the spiritual, the woo-woo, the devout, the religious. No, you fool. Faith is for […]

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We know God as we are

I’d always been confused by the incongruences and inconsistencies of the Bible. I couldn’t understand why and how the Bible, the source of absolute truth, didn’t make sense in today’s world and time. If it was so timeless and impeccable, how come so much of it doesn’t make sense or fit into today’s narrative? Why […]

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Gratitude and me

Gratitude. I feel gratitude. It feels like fullness. Like the vessel of me, my physical body, the container of my thoughts, the essence of my being is FULL, touching, pushing against the edges of who and what I am. It doesn’t matter what I’m grateful for. There’s a knowing that the logic, the thoughts, the […]

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Love, a horrible thing

Love is a scary thing. Don’t do it. The risk is too big. The fall too hard. Love is a horrible thing. It makes you do weird things. Crazy things. Stupid things. It makes you become someone new. You stop knowing who you are. Sometimes people don’t recognize you anymore. Love is a terrible thing. […]

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Effortless union

Life as beautiful as me, Love as beautiful as you. We make a good couple, duo, pair. Hand in hand, step by step, breath by breath. Looking into each other, into the abyss, the bliss of who we are, the perfection, completeness, the completion. Calling forth of the other, rising up within ourselves, meeting in […]

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From the desk of your CEO and Captain,

I would like to thank you for being a courageous player in this Game of Life. I know you didn’t have to, or you could have been less involved or whatever. But you so daringly jump in, yielding relentlessly to faith, truth, freedom. Your desire to live and live fully is magnificent. You are a gorgeous […]

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Aladdin is woke – 23/100

I woke up today with a song stuck in my head. I hope it gets stuck in yours too. Lyrics are below. Bolded and italicized lines are courtesy of me as they speak to me on a deeper level. A Whole New World [Lea Salonga, Brad Kane] I can show you the world Shining, shimmering splendid […]

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Can’t sleep won’t sleep – 9/100

Time is 2:26am. New day. New blog post. I woke up around midnight. I knew immediately I would not be going back to sleep for a while. I still tried to fool myself by keeping my eyes closed and breathing long and slow. I eventually got up to pee. And somewhere along the way, I […]

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Forward and upward

I used to sit on my ass and ask God, the universe, whoever would listen to show me the way. I thought I was entitled to some sort of direction and guidance if I had faith, if I just believed some sort of unique destiny, a plan bigger than me. I got so good at […]

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My friend

Life is interesting. My friend, Mauro, and I met at a hostel in Seoul over a weekend. He was there for business and I was there for chillinnnn hahah. Simply, we clicked. We and a couple other hostel friends went out a few times and explored the city and it was good times every time. I […]

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Unfettered

When you’re going up a hill on an Icelandic pony and you’re about to jump over a little stream, you must completely believe in the horse and fate. Because if you show fear, you’ll spook the horse and the horse may stumble. It’s not being reckless. It’s being unfettered by doubt. That’s my definition of trust. […]

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Move

The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide you are not going to stay where you are. – J.P. Morgan This quote has been chilling in my drafts since last month. It had no title originally so out of curiosity, I opened it up and found this nugget of wisdom saved for a later […]

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It never ends

Stay hungry. Stay foolish. – Steve Jobs Oh shoot. I love this kind of restlessness and fearlessness. It’s exhilarating to know that I can want and want and want and want and it will never end because I am alive and a human being. And it’s even more invigorating to know that my action and willpower […]

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Hieroglyphic

I have decided. I’m going to learn how to code. I have declared it and now hold myself accountable for spending my free time on code.org, khanacademy.com, and other free coding instruction websites. I don’t know why, but it intrigues me and this is something I want to invest in. It’s a little very daunting […]

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Rules Schmules

“Every business… operates according to its own rules. There are many ways to run a successful company. What works once may never work again. There are no rules. You don’t learn to walk by following rules. You learn by doing.” – Richard Branson, CEO of Virgin Group. This guy is legit.

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Desire

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. – Psalm 91:1 Dad, I want to dwell in your shelter!!!  And rest in your shadow!!!  You are doing something crazy right now.  I don’t just feel it.  I don’t just believe it.  I know it.  Don’t […]

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Simple

Exodus 27 & 28: the altar of burnt offering & the priestly garments There is so much detail in the instructions… e.g. “Build an altar of acacia wood, 3 cubits high;  it is to be square, 5 cubits long and 5 cubits wide.  Make a horn at each of the four corners, so that the […]

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Yes please.

I needa study/get stuff done buttt I think I’m going to squeeze this out real quick.  Sounds like I’m taking a poo haha. Read Psalms and 2 Timothy.  Got stuck at 1:7 of the latter book. Really couldn’t go further.  It was all I needed to hear/read for today. Not a spirit of timidity but […]

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Now

There are so many things I want to fill this page with right now.  Since I can’t seem to articulate them into a coherent concise entry I will go little by little. For a while now, I’ve been moved by Mary’s words to Gabriel after he told her about what was going to happen in […]

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Hear me

I have been crucified with Christ and i no longer but Christ lives me in me… – Gal 2:20 But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss.  What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of Christ Jesus our Lord for whose sake we have lost all things. […]

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Drenched

… the Lord’s unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in him. – Psalm 32:10 Right before I read this, I wrote in my journal: Dad, do you think I trust you too much sometimes?  I feel like I do, esp when I see how much I don’t care. Heehee.  When I read that truth […]

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He said

Be still before me and wait patiently.  – Psalm 37:7 Okay.

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Mr. Bruce Mau

Up until today, I had no idea who this was or how to spell his name from hearing it. I was talking to my computer graphics professor about computer graphic stuff (surprised?) and I shared how I’d like to play around with Illustrator more but when I’m in front of the computer I have nothing […]

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Walk & 8

Sometimes you start out running and return home walking.  And that’s fine.  There are days meant for relaxation and enjoyment at walking pace. Today was one of those days.  300 meters in, I knew I wasn’t going to run another yard.  So I walked.  I was a 40 year old woman in a 22 year […]

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4

Sometimes all it takes is time. ˙˙∆∆ˆ¥®ƒ√∫˜µøˆ¥†ƒ˙∆˜˚¥†¨®†´∑´®œ∑œ∑å≈ç√ I was trying to create a long line to separate my thoughts and I discovered if you press alt + any letter, ^those characters come up.  Holy cow!!  I had no idea. Anyway.  Everything I wanted to say flew out the window when I got caught up in […]

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Resident

9 Nothing was in the ark except the two tablets of stone which Moses put there at Horeb, when the Lord made a covenant with the children of Israel, when they came out of the land of Egypt. 10 And it came to pass, when the priests came out of the holy place, that the cloud filled the house of the Lord, 11 so that the priests could […]

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