Five years ago, I was out in Barcelona studying abroad and sending photos of my experiences and adventures to my ex. I prefaced my photos with: Sorry, I'm horrible at taking pictures. He immediately responded: You are brilliant and everything you do is fucking fantastic. I blushed at that, so aware of my melting heart,… Continue reading Blooming remains
I realized I've been sabotaging myself. I sleep late because I want to "catch up" with work. I don't actually catch up. I find myself getting distracted with other to-do's, scrolling through Instagram. I tell myself I deserve it, after a full day's work. So then I set my alarm for very early the next… Continue reading My lie of “catching up”
In my life, I consider the moments of moving in faith, "jumping the cliff". Like quitting my job, letting go of a 4-year crush that I thought would be the relationship of my life (HAHA), things like that. I have no idea what's at the bottom, if there is a bottom. I have no idea… Continue reading Leaving the nest – Pt. 1
Looking up at the sky today, I was mesmerized by the wispy clouds against the blue background. Super gorgeous day. I could see the clouds slowly unfurling and meandering, nowhere to go, nothing to do. Gazing at the vastness, enjoying the warmth of the sun, I had a sudden feeling that I was in a… Continue reading Are you home?
In this moment of Life, I feel gratitude. I feel joy. I feel fulfillment. I feel flow. And this same moment of Life doesn't look anything like I thought it would, in order for me to feel gratitude, joy, fulfillment, flow. I work full-time in public accounting, also known as a soul-sucking corporate machine. It… Continue reading Still hungry
Man, it feels good to have this blank entry in front of me. Also, it's painful. Haha. I sit here wanting to write and the judgments introduce themselves. Really elementary judgments. Like feeling bad that I only write when I feel like it, and where's the craftsmanship in that? The dedication, the devotion to my… Continue reading Like a charm
Spirit, I welcome you. I invite you. Let's talk. Let's talk about my worthiness. I'd like to pick a bone with you. And I probably will get crap for talking crap on my life. But that's okay. Because I feel what I feel. I know what I know. And all that is MF valid. I… Continue reading My sincere ass prayer