You Have Chosen Exactly What You Are Today

I once met someone involved in an MLM (Multi level marketing). Let’s call her Mary. Someone else had connected us because she found out I was starting a coaching business and she felt Mary would be a helpful resource. This was in the very very infancy stages of my coaching/guiding/whatever business. Grateful for the connection, […]

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Lessons

Last night around 9-10pm, I went to my car to get my green juice bottle to get it ready for the next day, my today. I saw a pair of sweats lying in front of my neighbor’s door. I debated whether I should knock on the door and let them know. Lazy me said nah. […]

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Welcome to the Mad Tea Party – 64/100

I saw this on my way home from work. Took me a second to read and comprehend it. When I did, it tickled me. Life really is exactly that sometimes – a mad tea party. Everyone is doing their best the best they know how. Everyone is wanting the best for themselves, in a non-narcissistic […]

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Alchemical connection – 60/100

There is nothing quite as beautiful as beholding someone who chooses to show up. Not physically. I’m talking with all they got, all they are, all they want. With all the inner workings, desires, hopes, insecurities, fears, doubts. It’s the showing up that indicates Life. A desire to Live. A desire to be free, to […]

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To my friend – 52/100

I hear your pain. I see your pain. I almost feel your pain. I don’t know the answers. I don’t need to know. I’m here for you, friend. I’m here at your sidelines. I’ll walk alongside you. I’ll run next to you if you need. I believe in greater things for you, as you believe […]

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Connection

I’ve been using this networking app called Shapr. It works like Tinder or any dating app where you view profiles and swipe right if you dig, left if you don’t. If both parties swipe right, game on. I’ve connected with several individuals since I got back on it a few weeks ago. It’s been fun. […]

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No mo FOMO pt. 2

FOMO was a real thing for me. It loyally guided most, if not all, of my decisions in how I spent my time, shared my energy, focused my attention. I gravitated toward people, experiences, and places that I felt, if I could just get in their vicinity, I would feel more whole, happier, belong-ed (not […]

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I listened and it was perfect – 47/100

On the way back from therapy, I ask myself what I’m going to do the rest of the day. Our session was earlier than usual so I had a few hours of the remaining morning and the afternoon to myself. Immediately, the answer I got back – San Diego. Hmm. Okay. I decide yes. I’m down. […]

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What’s your humanity? – 44/100

The other day, I opened the front door, carrying my backpack and lunch bag, ready to hit up a café for the day when I looked down and saw a medium-sized Amazon box. Without thinking, I let out a shriek of happiness and shouted to my brother, mom – to whoever was in earshot that […]

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My friends are the MF best (my brother is too) – 42/100

The day after I wrote that I had a perfect day, I had an even perfect-er day. Completely unexpected, wild, and full. Life is too damn good. Here’s how it went down. My brother, Jed, had been telling me to keep June 10th reserved. He said he wanted to take me out for my birthday. […]

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Pretty much a perfect day – 41/100

Today was a perfect day. It started yesterday. I had pumped my bike tires and gotten my gear out and ready so I can get going without too much thinking. I got a decent amount of sleep. That’s the best, I’m realizing more and more. I went on my bike ride to the beach, riding […]

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A good friendship – 7/100

I had a friend visiting from out of town. Hosting is hard work. I forewent a lot of my own work and to-do’s but I enjoy his company and wanted him to have a good time. It’s a nice feeling to show an outsider my favorite spots. Plus he’s chill so we pretty much hit up the […]

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Let me know if you’re looking for one – 6/100

After my swim two days ago, one of the Korean ladies that I sort of became friends with at Gold’s Gym asked from the lane next to me, “Do you have a boyfriend?” “Haha no, I don’t.” – I could already tell what was coming and I was getting ready to say, Let me live!!!!! Hahaha […]

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My First Adult Heartbreak pt. 1 of 2

My first and only (thus far) adult heartbreak happened when I was 25/26. It happened with a guy I met on a dating app who happened to live 5 minutes from me. He had this bad boy streak about him, a mysterious dark vibe that indicated he’d been through some kind of hell and back. He once […]

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A Gramma’s Wisdom

I was changing in the locker room when a Korean gramma approached her locker and then, me. She had round laughing eyes that also looked like she wouldn’t take shit from anyone. She asked me in Korean what my age was, something that pretty much all Koreans do. I responded in Korean – 27. She exclaimed, Oh […]

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Cleaning house

I woke up with no big plans. I had let go of anything I’m “supposed” to do last week. I took a shower, dressed out, put on my face, packed my stuff to work at a cafe for the day, scavenged for food to take on my journey. I was all ready to go and […]

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No thank you but fine

My dad’s been telling me to be soft… and feminine… and basically uncomfortable. LOL. Because right now, I do not feel soft and feminine, or even want to exude anything like that, especially toward him. UGH. I want to punch him. Because my hardness and low-balling tactics are partly because of him, know what I mean? […]

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Lessons from My Dating Past to Present

My dating career isn’t too extensive, though its trajectory does seem to show some promise. By that I mean I haven’t dated too much but I feel like I’m getting better and better at reading and picking out good guys, and even men. My first adult relationship happened at 25 years old. The four years […]

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Portland in a nutshell

I had booked the week of vacation without much thought beside racing to schedule it before I got staffed. I had booked the flight to Portland, OR without much thought beside glorying in the fact it cost about $130 (which actually ended up costing $250 lol). I had contacted a good friend, Ben, without much […]

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I want my Yeti – I got my Yeti

The sexiest thing about driving to work on Presidents’ Day – getting from home to LA office in less than 30 minutes. The least sexy thing about driving to work on Presidents’ Day – driving to work on Presidents’ Day. Lol anyway. I lost my Yeti during a bachelorette party in San Diego a few weeks […]

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No mo’ FOMO

I used to ask everyone I met while traveling for their contact info. I always wanted to find some way to connect because who knew what the future held. I stopped. Because I stopped feeling like I would miss out if I didn’t keep these people in my life somehow. I stopped feeling like they […]

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Marathon thoughts

I know, I know – I’ve posted all over Snapchat and Instagram about this damn marathon week I just had. It was a good time for me, sort of like a vacation, hell, and productive period rolled into one. And today was the culmination – the big 26.2. Below are some highlights. Overheard while running: “Holy Jesus” […]

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Randomness from Orlando

Some things about the past few days in Orlando. I had Mexican for dinner with a Brazilian from the Airbnb I’m staying at. It was his first time trying Mexican. Highlight of the meal? His amazement and delight at horchata, drink of the gods and “arroz con leche in a cup!!”. Let’s enjoy his excitement evidenced […]

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#4 Dad

Wow – the little brother can Write. Love love love!

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Good people

I’m late on writing something I promised some people. It’s burning a hole in the back of my mind. I have so much I want to say… and nothing to write – at the moment. The thought that does come up in my mind is: I’m surrounded by good people. I left church this past […]

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Pops

I grew up vowing I would never – never – ever be like my dad. He’s not a terrible man; he’s just done some terrible things. But since high school, when the admirable image of my dad disintegrated and I began to use my mind to really understand what was going on and what he […]

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Four bags

On my flight home from Phoenix, I didn’t hear my group being called and ended up having to store my luggage at the very back. Another woman, about 30ish, also had to pack hers in the back. I noticed she’s beautiful and tall and confident and womanly. You could say I was checking her out […]

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My friend

Life is interesting. My friend, Mauro, and I met at a hostel in Seoul over a weekend. He was there for business and I was there for chillinnnn hahah. Simply, we clicked. We and a couple other hostel friends went out a few times and explored the city and it was good times every time. I […]

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Roses

“Put that thing away and smell the roses!” Referring to the phone in my hand, a man popped up out of nowhere and stepped into stride with me as I walked toward the office in downtown LA. I laughed and turned off the screen. I had been reading one of my favorite bloggers’ recent posts – it […]

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Paths

I spent Monday through Thursday (today) in San Diego at a client. Driving back today, I felt a little overwhelmed with work and alla that stuff. I hadn’t run my 3 miles for the day according to my training plan. I got home around 8pm and wondered, sprawled on my floor in my running clothes, […]

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Things missed (while in Korea)

This was written a couple days before leaving for the States and published 5/14/16. Not sure why I lagged on posting this but here it is haha! People – Y’all know who you are. And the two that don’t read this, ma and pa. Can’t wait to catch up with people! Mexican food – Jed, […]

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Things felt

The next train left at 8:25am. I flicked my wrist to check the time: 8:04am. “Halmoni, I have to go.” With that I threw in my clothes and packed my bag. I had spent the night there as I would be leaving Korea soon and it was a courtesy familial visit. She walked me out […]

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Simple things

Having an awesome travel partner makes the biggest difference. It’s the difference of feeling comfortable enough to do and say what you want and still meeting the other human being where they’re at. Plus, ’tis a nice combination of getting places and following plan and always leaving space for the unforeseeable. If you’re reading this girl, love ya! Bye!

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Bagel

Yesterday I got to work early and, on a whim, decided to stop by the Starbucks in our building for some decaf goodness. I try not to consume caffeine but can’t stay away from the bitterness of coffee. Anyway, as I enter the food court area, this Asian lady with glasses runs – yes, she runs up to me. […]

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The universe

It’s Christmas and I’ve stumbled upon my gift from the universe on Facebook in bed. This guy, Colin Wright, travels full-time and writes books. He writes books so he can sustain his travelling lifestyle. And I’m sure his world experiences have provided tons of content to create those books. It’s a pretty nice cycle he has […]

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6 update

So yesterday was the day. Not gonna lie, I really questioned whether I could do it. I mean, I felt like I could finish the 6 regardless of anything; the question was, would I die trying? Lol. The answer is, a pleasant no. I don’t usually do this but I allowed for accompaniment on this run, a guy […]

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A real fake thing

I was talking to someone recently and somewhere along the conversation, the topic of fear came up. He asked what fears I have/had, to which I answered, fear of failure and rejection. I told him I felt I was over them but later on in the conversation, I said something that indicated a fear of rejection. He […]

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Good day documentation

It’s 1:57am. I just got home, showered, and am now in my pajamas. But instead of crawling into bed, I want to document this day. It was a good day. Correction – a really good day. I did some work in the morning at home until the power went out and since my work laptop has […]

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Thoughts

My attitude lately has been characterized more and more by annoyance, intolerance, and rolling of eyes. Also, very little patience. Toward family, this is normal. Lol. Toward non-family, not so much. But so prevalent nowadays, it seems. Specifically, I get so easily ticked by those who seem to live in their own worlds and are […]

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Earphones and people

Torture is forgetting your earphones in the car when going in to work. So close yet so far. Maybe torture is the wrong word. But time takes it extra slow when I don’t have the option to dance in my cubicle. For as long as I live, may I never forget it in my car again. […]

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Unfettered

When you’re going up a hill on an Icelandic pony and you’re about to jump over a little stream, you must completely believe in the horse and fate. Because if you show fear, you’ll spook the horse and the horse may stumble. It’s not being reckless. It’s being unfettered by doubt. That’s my definition of trust. […]

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Zero

It has been a very interesting past few weeks. A very hard few weeks. Breaking up with someone is never easy. It hurts like a mother and lasts like it will never end. I don’t know where to begin. Except maybe here. I  know I tried my best and I know where I messed up […]

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Hi Mom

Anything is possible. I’ve never really seen my mom as a role model. Yeah, I said it. For me, the fact that thought existed in my mind divulges a lot about our relationship, how I view her, how I respect her – or don’t respect her. Which is why what I’m about to say means something. […]

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Study breaking

I have 5 minutes til my study break is over. I have 3 full days left before I leave for Portugal. I don’t know where the time went, but the program is almost done. I can’t even focus on that right now because I’m 1 exam, 1 paper, and 1 presentation away from reality. I […]

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Florin

It was a beautiful day. I had just finished my one class of the day and – that’s enough for it to be a beautiful day, no? Hahha the cherry on top, it was sunny out, I was feeling good, and I’m in Barcelona. Life is A-OK. On my way down the street, a slightly busy […]

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In passing

Where to begin. I walked out of class with nothing on my mind and everything on my mind. I don’t get it either haha. Maybe it was the three classes I had today, the last of which I was 97% checked out, except when he called roll. Maybe it was the thought of planning for […]

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Fantastic

So there’s this guy. Let’s be upfront and honest. I’ve known this guy for… almost two months. We’ve been in the same country for about 2.5 weeks of these two months. I think… we’ve hung out or talked or texted or Skyped every single day since we met. No, I know we have. He’s become a daily […]

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Exploring Girona

I had an amazing weekend. Our program group went to Girona and Figueres (north of Barcelona) for the day and six of us banded together and stayed in Girona for the night. We stayed at a pretty cool hostel (hot showers and free breakfast!), which I really liked since it was my first time. We paid […]

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The first day

First full day in Barcelona. I don’t know where to begin. So let’s begin with home. Home is shared with a family of four: Mom, Dad, and twin girls. I hadn’t expected the twins; I had thought it was just a couple. Here they are: Now y’all know how I feel about kids. But these […]

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Enchanted

I don’t know why or how this thought came into my head but I want to hear Andre Rieu in concert. He’s this orchestra conductor who also plays the violin. And I don’t know, I’m super enchanted by him. I really want to see him when I’m in Europe. Tickets start from about 60 bucks… […]

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Quote of the day month year lifetime: “Do you, and do you well.” – Anjelah Johnson (aka Bon Qui Qui) That is all. And also the fact that she is not just a hilarious ghetto lady. She is a super legit woman of faith, substance, and talent. I was very very impressed by her stand-up […]

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Mezcla

Having the hardest time writing support letters. On a funner note, went surfing for the second time. Had a BLAST. Saw a seal too!! Caught a couple waves. Almost died trying to catch others. Looking to buy a wetsuit and a board. Craigslist, here I come! On a deeper note, had a beautiful conversation over […]

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Mommy and me

Got home a tad buzzed last night. Ended up having the craziest heart to heart with my mom. We talked about EVERYTHING. Barcelona, school, future, Dad, Jed, Mom, me, career. Beyond that, there were things that couldn’t be expressed or contained in a word or phrase. Things that lie below the surface of the conscious landscape […]

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Voice

I visited my high school in the morning today. I ran into my senior year English teacher. She squinted her eyes, leaned her head toward me. I laughed and we exchanged a few words. She said I looked familiar but when she heard my voice, she knew she had me in class before. I was confused, […]

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Nothing but a number

“I’m young, I still have so much to do! I still have so much I want to do.” Spoken by a woman twice my age. Word.

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Do you know who I am?

You know what really changes people? When they are believed in. When someone else recognizes potential and goodness in them. I think that really changes people. It’s crazy what it does to me. It changes everything. It makes work fun. It makes my talent and ability something to be proud of and maximize. It  makes […]

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If the facts don’t fit the theory, change the facts. Albert Einstein No idea why, but I like this. It immediately struck me at first glance but I think I’ve yet to really understand what Mr. Einstein meant by this, especially since he’s pretty much the ultimate man of science. More on this later… maybe. […]

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How running has shaped me

Running as taught me something valuable. Running has taught me to say hello. It’s so simple. I’ve learned to say hello to every single person I encounter on my runs. My thoughts used to wrestle around the hello. Because you see everyone from a distance you have time to think. And that makes every hello intentional. I used to […]

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Colbert

Came across an interesting article about a man I’ve heard much about but don’t really know: Stephen Colbert. Take a look if you have the chance. Very admirable, in my opinion. Anyway. Happy Wednesday!!! 2 more exams to go. 2 more. You can do it Grace.

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