Sacred calling – 43/100

Yesterday evening found me sprawled out on my bed feeling not-normal. Feeling bleh, meh, and eh. It wasn’t horrible. Which is intolerable to me at this point. In the past, it was all I knew, this feeling of emptiness, quiet anxiety, lack. Now, I acknowledge and allow, but it is not where I choose to […]

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Getting my ass kicked – 60/100

Though I’ve been active most of my life, there was a period when I was more… idle. I had gained a bit of weight, felt more self-conscious, and in general, didn’t like how I looked and felt. This was about six or seven years back, when I was struggling to understand myself and what the […]

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That which does not serve you breaks you – 56/100

Back in the day, 9 out of 10 human beings that found out I was a runner, asked me if I listen to music when I run. 9 out of 9 times, I answered, No, hell no. For some reason, this always seemed to surprise them. I always gave the explanation – Listening to music […]

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Tri Training

It’s official. Triathlon training begins tomorrow. Why tomorrow, a Friday, and not a Monday? Because I did my research late and now I have 18 weeks and two days to complete a 20 week program. So it begins tomorrow. This will be quite different from marathon training. Obviously. I’m looking forward to it, to the […]

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Marathon/Running Stuffs

Hello! A couple people hit me up after I posted about my marathon weekend at Disney World a couple weeks ago asking for training tips from my experience. Here’s the breakdown on how I trained. Training Plan Halhigdon.com (will open to another tab) – enough said. Lol. This appears to be the go-to resource. I asked someone for […]

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Step by step, ya big baby

This marathon weekend is a big deal to me. I would never have bought tickets to the damn thing and flown all the way to Orlando to do what I can do perfectly fine over in Cali. But a good friend of mine insisted and here we are. I struggled at first, this is crazy […]

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Marathon thoughts

I know, I know – I’ve posted all over Snapchat and Instagram about this damn marathon week I just had. It was a good time for me, sort of like a vacation, hell, and productive period rolled into one. And today was the culmination – the big 26.2. Below are some highlights. Overheard while running: “Holy Jesus” […]

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I wanted to like you

If there’s one thing I really truly dislike, it’s bad quality. Here’s an example: It’s just a regular sports bra, right? This is what it did to my shirt earlier this week – after I’ve been wearing and washing it for the past four months. The first time it happened, I didn’t think much of it – it […]

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Paths

I spent Monday through Thursday (today) in San Diego at a client. Driving back today, I felt a little overwhelmed with work and alla that stuff. I hadn’t run my 3 miles for the day according to my training plan. I got home around 8pm and wondered, sprawled on my floor in my running clothes, […]

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12/31

Today is the last day of 2015. I woke up with my head feeling a little stuffy, not completely there. I forced myself to change into running gear and hit the road. As I stepped into stride, I felt… euphoria? Lol. At one point, I caught myself saying, this is the best day of the year. […]

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6 update

So yesterday was the day. Not gonna lie, I really questioned whether I could do it. I mean, I felt like I could finish the 6 regardless of anything; the question was, would I die trying? Lol. The answer is, a pleasant no. I don’t usually do this but I allowed for accompaniment on this run, a guy […]

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6 (not 11.6)

Okay time for an update, since all my avid readers are waiting for one. Lol. I haven’t been running for the past month. I had rolled my ankle in October and interestingly the aftermath came in late November. And then I started worrying needlessly about my final and papers. So I haven’t been running for the past […]

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11.6

People who know me from high school ask me if I still run today – yes. Definitely not as much as before; I don’t have a coach and 2 team captains to answer to and there are no weekly league meets or PRs to break. I run for myself. It gives me time to start the […]

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How running has shaped me

Running as taught me something valuable. Running has taught me to say hello. It’s so simple. I’ve learned to say hello to every single person I encounter on my runs. My thoughts used to wrestle around the hello. Because you see everyone from a distance you have time to think. And that makes every hello intentional. I used to […]

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Rundom

After work today, I decided to go for a run.  It was pretty random; I hadn’t run in… a week or two.  And it was also 7:30pm.  I haven’t run past 9am for… a couple years I think.  But just something in me wanted it… how could i deny myself something i want?  Hahah. Man, […]

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Today

I have not run in over a month.  Do I miss it?  Sort of.  I don’t mind not running either. I realized it’s nothing to me. Before, it was an obsession.  An obsession of weight.  An obsession of fitness.  An obsession of… me.  Haha.  It was the one thing that I could control about myself. […]

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Roadblock

I hate when I’m on a good run and I have to do number 2. The route becomes a journey, or more like a quest.  Or more like an emergency. Exciting.

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Who knows

I ran today.  The last four or five times, I walked.  I have an issue with my calves hardening up a quarter-mile to a mile into the run since sophomore year in high school.  It’s ridiculous and it used to infuriate me.  Stupid calves won’t let me do what I want at the speed that […]

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Walk & 8

Sometimes you start out running and return home walking.  And that’s fine.  There are days meant for relaxation and enjoyment at walking pace. Today was one of those days.  300 meters in, I knew I wasn’t going to run another yard.  So I walked.  I was a 40 year old woman in a 22 year […]

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River

A couple weeks ago, I started running along the riverbed near my house.  There are some cons but I’ve mostly noticed pros.  They are: no cars, no traffic signals, not a lot of sidewalk traffic, lots of open air, no thoughts of making turns or a route to follow, dips going under the streets to […]

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