That young girl & me

I went down memory lane. I’m not sure how I found it or why I felt compelled to go down it. But I did. This memory lane is lined with the titles of my blog posts, with the days, months, years of publication, scattered with the words of a young girl, a young woman, really, […]

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Holy Pavement

I came home from work today ready to go to church. My body yearned to move, itself and the energy within. It didn’t matter what time it was, that I had work to do, that I had driven over an hour to get home, that I was tired, that I hadn’t eaten dinner, that – […]

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Letter to the Universe Regarding My Partner

Dear Universe, You are really funny sometimes. Funny like fickle. But also funny like heart-meltingly good that I want to cry but I’ll just laugh instead. A little over a year ago, I remember being asked about my dating life and I replied with genuine giddiness and zeal, I love my singlehood. I can see […]

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Origins – 65/100

One of the hardest parts of this chapter of my life is not feeling free to express and share as I am on social media. Specifically, regarding my parents. I do share openly on my blog and that’s shared on Facebook automatically but I’m about 100% sure that my parents don’t read it. They won’t […]

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For me – 54/100

Life is happening for me. Hasn’t always felt that way. But even then, it was. Generously, freely, delightfully. Life is happening for me in ways I didn’t anticipate or even desire. In ways that flow to the depths of my soul, reach the edges of my heart. I am humbled and ecstatic. Expectant and content. […]

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Well within

On the last Sunday of 2015, I decided to stop attending my church of 20+ years and start checking out other churches. In August of 2016, I decided to stop attending church, period. I felt I should take ownership of my faith and make a conscious decision regarding what I did with my spiritual life […]

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No mo’ FOMO

I used to ask everyone I met while traveling for their contact info. I always wanted to find some way to connect because who knew what the future held. I stopped. Because I stopped feeling like I would miss out if I didn’t keep these people in my life somehow. I stopped feeling like they […]

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Eating my carelessness and Randomness

On Monday, I broke about a dozen eggs. My mom had busted out a fresh 18-pack of eggs, took out 2 for breakfast, and left the carton on the counter. I, in an effort to be helpful, began to close the carton but, in another effort to be helpful, noticed the refrigerator door was swinging […]

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Randomness from Orlando

Some things about the past few days in Orlando. I had Mexican for dinner with a Brazilian from the Airbnb I’m staying at. It was his first time trying Mexican. Highlight of the meal? His amazement and delight at horchata, drink of the gods and “arroz con leche in a cup!!”. Let’s enjoy his excitement evidenced […]

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State of mind

I am the healthiest I’ve ever been. Healthier than when I was 110 pounds of lean muscle and 4% body fat. Healthier than when I could run 6.5 minute mile and a 61 second quarter mile (those times aren’t that fast but I’m a short Asian girl, so just let me have it haha). Healthier […]

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Stream of consciousness

I am at a crossroads. In the podcast I listened to today, the James Altucher Show, Brian Koeppelman basically says, don’t calculate too much. It’s not that I’ve been calculating so much, but I think I can definitely calculate less. That is all. Hahahah. Basically, let’s move keep moving. The place I’m in today, it is so […]

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Stuff

I ran into someone the other day, an acquaintance. We did the small talk and she asked me what I was up to these days. I answered that I’m working, chilling, and generally figuring stuff out. In a non-malicious way, she replied saying I said that answer last year too, the figuring stuff out part. […]

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Some kind of way

I’m feeling some kind of way right now. Definitely feeling Post Malone’s Deja Vu. Lol. Or just Post Malone in general. Why does he only have 5 songs out?!? Anyway lol – I’m feeling that feeling when things go the way they go – if you just let it. Feeling that you don’t have to always try. […]

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Double Space

I can spot a double space from a mile away. Especially when it’s after a period, because it’s a preference thing to do a single or double space after periods. Not happy about it, but fine. I used to be a double spacer until one day someone asked me why? And I didn’t have an […]

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Arms

I feel like a lot of my posts (all 2 or 3 of them) recently have been about running. Appropriately so, since I get a little more excited talking about running than I do about other things that take up most of my week, namely work. And to really drive that point home, this post is […]

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Hosteling

Things you learn when hosteling: Decipher how any type of shower head, faucet, and sink works. Dry and change in the space of 2×2 while making sure no body parts, towel parts, and clothes touch the walls. Not forgetting to bring your underwear to change into when hopping in the shower. I guess rushing around in a towel […]

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The Motherland

I’m in the motherland. It’s the craziest thing to me. I remember hearing friends talk about flying to Korea, visiting Korea, living in Korea, eating in Korea, traveling in Korea. And here I am, doing the same my own way. There’s a flurry of things happening in my brain right now. Here are a few […]

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Life’s Hum

Stumbled on Shonda Rimes talking about her hum, or rather rediscovering what that means to her because she vowed to say “Yes” to everything for a year. Really really enjoyed it. Take a look-see if you have a chance.

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Too early

I am pretty tired. I woke up at 4:06am so I could work out a little (very little lol) and beat traffic to get to Manhattan Beach by 5:51am. I would have gotten here a little earlier if I hadn’t missed the 405N from the 110S. But anyway. It’s been a long week already and […]

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Mantra

My #1 policy is quality. Binary Star

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Stream of consciousness on routine

After working in the same office, parking in the same lot, opening the same door, returning to the same desk and cubicle at 8 am, leaving at 5 pm every day for about a year, I realized I do much better for myself when I’m not doing the same thing every day. The internship allowed me a taste […]

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Thakns

Thakns is a huge part of my day. I try to sign off emails with Thanks, And 95% of the time, I type: Thakns, I need to slow down. I do not want to be good friends with Backspace. Thakns. Thanks. Jeez. Happy Monday!

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Study diversion

Sitting here with my head hurting a little, the eleven essay prompts I need to be either working on or studying, and a relentless desire to crawl into bed… I wonder what the rest of my life is going to look like. I want so much to do something good in this world. It doesn’t […]

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Sound

I get lost everyday going to and from work. Music is bumping whether roads are free and clear or congested, washing over me, enveloping me. Doesn’t matter if I’m late, doesn’t matter if I’m at a dead stop. I found I’m really good at sitting there and being driven by the beat. I’ve rediscovered the music […]

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I’m a brat

Someone I don’t particularly look forward to running into flagged me down while on my way to the restroom at a coffee shop. We talked a bit and he said he wanted to encourage me with Bible verses and such. Sure. I don’t remember too much but one thing stuck and I’m keeping it. “You […]

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Today

The busier I get, the better I get at getting shit done. It’s a super sweet thing to see. In the same amount of time I would normally get through a paper, I can get through a paper (done properly), write a blog, study half a chapter for class, read a chapter for leisure, and get […]

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Unfold

My journal opened to a random page today as I skimmed to my last entry. The words caught my eye: Don’t get stuck on a sentence. There’s a chapter and story waiting to unfold. Yasssssss. It’s not that I want to overlook or ignore the existence of that sentence and whatever it is I’m going through. […]

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Arrange whatever pieces come your way.

– Virginia Woolf Today’s mantra. There is no wall but the one you build yourself (usually haha). Take what’s given and work it. Happy Wednesday!

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Alone

The first hours of the day have always been sort of sacred to me. When I was a kid, my mom would wake up at 5 to pray, read the Bible, get the day started. I picked that up over the years (not necessarily the praying and Bible reading part) and it’s become a part of me. […]

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Sometimes, there’s nothing you can do. Sometimes, there’s nothing to be done. Just enjoy the ride. Happy Tuesday!

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Good morning

“Don’t forget to be bold.” – Sergey Brin’s last words to Marissa Mayer when she left Google to become Yahoo!’s CEO in 2012.

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Hi

The past few months have been a whirlwind of things. Ok not really but I just want to sound like I’m super busy, too busy to keep up this blog. Such a lie. Haha. Anyway, here are a few things on my mind. I met someone I want to mentor/coach me. She is pretty amazing and what […]

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The little things

I’ve had two email drafts sitting in my drafts folder for over a year now. I figured it’s about time to clean out the drafts that were not drafts in the first place. They are notes from when I didn’t know where to write them down at the moment. One draft, I’m too pansy to […]

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Shade

Sometimes, things work out. Sometimes, they don’t. But sometimes, they do. It’s nice to sit in the shade of the flow of things when I feel like I’ve been wandering and meandering under the sun for a while. Happy almost Friday.

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Unplugged

For the past three weeks I’ve been commuting to Rancho Cucamonga Monday through Thursday. That’s a quick appearance on the 5 south, a sometimes morale-crippling struggle on the 91 east, an easy transition to the smooth flowing 57 north, an 80mph run on the 60 east, and an abrupt squeeze through the 15 north. That […]

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Tralalala

2015. What a year, and it’s just July. Four months abroad behind me, currently halfway through a full-time (paid) internship, and my last semester of undergrad (finally) on deck. Not to mention James. I can definitely say he drives me crazy, and not always in the fuzzy butterfly way. No siree. But then I drive […]

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Not everything has to be fixed. – Randy Pausch (The Last Lecture) Happy Saturday.

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Re-grand opening

As the little circling icon moves indicating WordPress.com is loading, I hope my internet is down and I will be relieved, forced to walk away without writing. Unfortunately for my reluctance, the internet is working and here I am. I haven’t written in a while. I almost feel like I’ve forgotten how. I feel like I’ve […]

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“Home”

Homeboy can write. Proud that he’s able to think and feel and articulate. Of course, I taught him everything so I shouldn’t be so surprised. Love you brother. Keep writing. And don’t forget me to mention me often.

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40

The subway was filled with way more humans than I’d ever seen. I wasn’t even sure I’d be able to get on. Two months back, I would have shyly retracted my steps and resigned my space, not wanting to impede on others’ space. But today wasn’t two months back, it’s today haha. I stepped on like […]

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Anticipation

Originally posted on Memories Happen Without Warning:
It is quite amazing how I do not sleep until 3 am every single day. It has just become a habit that I dont know how to change. I have tried many attempts to go to sleep early at like 11pm and wont be able to sleep until…

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A day

Today has been quite an interesting day. My friend had sent me a care package with some very important things. The first of which is a jumbo jar of extra crunchy peanut butter. YES. And also travel-size contact lens solution… and lip balm… trail mix, chocolate-covered goji and raspberries, blackhead removing strips, and of course, […]

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The rambling

Randomness – It is cold. I don’t know how I did it, but I got myself to wake up early and go for a run. It was short and definitely freezing. Lol. Having been raised in California, I shamelessly admit I can barely handle this weather, which ranges from the high 40’s to 60’s F. […]

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La Sagrada Familia and rambling

Where do I begin… Hahaa. I expected nothing from this tour. All I knew about it was that it’s famous and that it’s designed by Antoni Gaudi. And that I can see it from my room window. I was seriously floored by everything I saw and learned about. What one man is inspired by and […]

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Real

Yeah… it’s really starting to sink in. I got my class schedule today. My weekend starts at 10:40am… Thursday. Oh jeez. Last week I found out the address of the home I’ll be staying in. Little by little… Finances are still tough, and I’m not sure how certain things are going to get paid for. I’ve […]

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My Dad and I

I’m a free woman. Or still learning. Last Tuesday I got my nose pierced. This Monday I took it out. What happened after Tuesday was my dad’s reaction. What happened on Monday was my reaction to his. He was extremely displeased. This is very close to being an understatement. But I’ll spare you the details. I […]

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Fact 3

I like meeting new people. It doesn’t bother me to make the first comment, the first hello, the first whatever. I think people are amazing and they’re always worth the risk of rejection or shutdown. And it usually doesn’t end in rejection. Because people like people, whether they are introverted, extroverted, hurt, or whole. At least that’s […]

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Email Subscriptions

There is one email subscription list I never ever ever delete without opening. Not Madewell, not Groupon, not Huffington Post. It’s this guy, James Altucher. I found him while browsing through Quora and I just really really like him and what he’s about. He writes about productivity, parenting, success, failures (lots of failures)… basically LIFE. […]

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Fact 2

I run. I’m not fast, I don’t run long distances. I don’t time myself, or keep track of mileage. I just run. It’s just what I do. Sometimes to deal with ish I don’t know how else to deal with. Sometimes because I wake up and I do. Sometimes because I ate too much last […]

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Fact 1

I’m going to try something that someone has been doing on her own blog: fun facts. Well I’ll just stick with Facts, since I don’t know if they’re necessarily Fun haha. It’s just another way for me to talk about me. I am my favorite subject, as my blog history tells me. I am a stickler for […]

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Ramble

I did an impromptu survey at work about chemistry and compatibility in relationships. I was curious as to what people thought was more important or necessary. I pretty much got the same answer all around but this one summed it up nicely: “Chemistry gets you started, compatibility keeps you there.” – Mr. Marchand (If you’re reading […]

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Also

I take pride in my “I don’t care, I do/say what I want” ways. I take it very seriously and live by it. Except today, I hurt someone with it. It wasn’t crazy bad. But I hurt someone. That was not cool. And I’m not okay with it. I always knew it’s not the absolute, […]

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Protected:

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

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The silence is interesting. It wraps around me so heavily, the sound of my typing and clocks ticking make it heavier. I’m very dramatic, and I have a feeling this post is going to be a little dramatic. Brace yourself, or click out of this page lol. Less than half an hour ago, silence was […]

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Parking attendant

Yesterday, I got to get on a boat in Newport and socialize with professionals from one of the world’s largest accounting firms. Dinner was provided (no drinks though… hahah). The moon was huge. The talking was fun. The prizes were cool. But hands down, the most beautiful, the most memorable moment happened on my way […]

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Sleep

It has been crazy these past couple of weeks, keeping up with classes, preparing for Barcelona, working, and applying for internships. Crazy. I love it. I’m getting crap hours of sleep but… I don’t mind the strain. I don’t know if I can do this forever. But I know I… would rather face a challenge or […]

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6

I’m going to be a new iPhone 6 owner in approximately 2.5 weeks. Maybe 2 *fingers crossed*. Here’s how my life will change. – I can download as many apps as I want. My current phone won’t let me download new apps because I have no space. – I can update my apps. My current […]

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Motion and beauty

I feel alive. Very much alive. I feel like I’m moving. Not sure where or how. But I feel… fresh. Hahaha. By that, I mean not stagnant, or stale. Blech. I feel like my life will amount to something. Somehow, someway. And so, I can enjoy this moment. The today, the present, because it’s all […]

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Summer

This summer has been beautiful. I’ve learned many things, things that I will sit down and properly process and explain. Later. But one simple thing I’ve walked away with this summer is, Life is crazy. Fucking crazy. I don’t mean it in an offensive way. I’m not really sure how else to convey it. The […]

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Me, meet me.

I originally wanted to take my brother to therapy. My friend who referred to a therapist told me I could just go for myself. I made an appointment for today at 5:30. Throughout the day I wondered what I would talk about. On my way there, I felt dumb. What if he thinks I’m some […]

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This song is on repeat. I really really really like this song. Hahah. Enjoy!!

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The Lord gives

There are days when I just know God has favor over me. Days when not a single commercial about Subaru of Long Beach’s annual car blowout or Tide’s new detergent or a Christian university soliciting faith-based MBAs or Kleenex’s designer tissues boxes (really.) attacks my ear space on Pandora. I hope I did not jinx it because it’s really a beautiful experience. […]

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Again

To hesitate is to perish. – Simón Bolívar If this sounds familiar, I commend you for reading my blog, and by commend, I mean, I’m thankful haha. This is my third time posting this quote. Lol. The first time, I wanted to pursue it. The second, I was in the middle of watching my hesitation (and […]

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Sometimes when I’m washing my hands in the restroom and females around me are doing a full-body and face examination, I want to tell them, girl, you look good, so go on and do your thing. I would probably be so judged lol. One day. Also, I couldn’t stop myself. I just really really wanted […]

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2:20am

The deliciousness of Jesus… the proximity, simplicity… renders me useless and surrendered. Day by day, more and more, I can deny less and less the presence of him in every part of my life. His fingerprints are ubiquitous on all parts of this life, my life. The more I step into the unknown, the clearer […]

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Belleza americana

Just watched American Beauty for the first time. What a movie.  

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Womancrush

I ordered Kim Walker’s Still Believe album today. I am mesmerized by her worship. Love the sound too. Next up is Kim Walker and hubby, Skyler Smith’s, album, Home.

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Thought

I miss writing. Where are you, brain? Are there no new experiences, epiphanies, happenings worthy of juicing into an entry? Well, one thing I learned recently: Assumptions are dangerous. They are also usually very useless. Let A be A and B be B and if C doesn’t matter in the equation, then eliminate it. Happy Tuesday!

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Aging

Sometimes I do work with my earphones on silent because I forget to unpause Pandora. Should I be worried?

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I feel like a mess. Life is grand.

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Suffocate

I have no time to want. I have no capacity to want Jesus right now. Never have I felt this… needy. All I see and feel and know is how much I need him now. It’s a very sober feeling. Not capricious. Not lighthearted. Not desirous. Desperate. That’s the only word I can think of to […]

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What The

I feel like it’s been “that time of month” for a month. Been roller coastering through laughter, crying, and everything next to, in between, above, below, within, and whatever other prepositions I can’t think of right now. Very interesting. There’s no time to evaluate it. There’s nothing to evaluate. Just… observe. Watch myself fall apart. […]

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It returned. I found it in the blackness looking a little beaten, weathered, maybe even tired. The star at the intersection of the handle and scoop seemed to have diminished slightly. Maybe I’m trippin. Regardless, there it was, recognizable, intact, and twinkling. The timing is impeccable. I am a very happy person. The large ladle […]

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Bipolar

It is 3:28am. Can I just say… Life is beautiful? Its a pleasure, a privilege, a(n) _______________ to be alive. Things are changing, coming, and going. I sound super bipolar considering my last post but this is really life, is it not? Haha. Tomorrow/today will/is a long day. It will be ok. Happy Thursday/Friday.

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Sometimes, it is what it is, ya know?

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“Life is a helluva lot more fun if you say yes rather than no.” – Richard Branson I’m finding this to be very true.

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Descendants

I opened up the new post page and stared blankly for six minutes, wandering back and forth through my browser tabs aimlessly. I knew I had some blog ideas to expand on, and share. Except I forgot what they were. Eventually I moved it to trash and right when I did, a topic popped into existence: […]

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Take 5

On my daily email readings, I came across this Forbes article on 5 tips for encouraging innovation in the Digital Age. I liked it so here it is. If you don’t have time or aren’t interested enough to click, here’s two points that I would consider making a part of my life – not just […]

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Glimpse

You remind me, of the things forgotten You remind me, until I’m totally undone – Letting Go (Steffany Frizzell) Beautiful.

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Anniversary

It’s been two years since I befriended WordPress. We’ve had our share of falling outs, mostly due to my lack of inspiration or time. Oh WordPress, you have been the ever faithful friend, an available ear at all times. Thanks for your patience and always seeming to understand. Or maybe it just seems like that […]

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I

I have 11 minutes before class. I keep talking and thinking about how something is changing within me but I don’t know what it is or how to explain it.  Yesterday while worshiping with a couple friends, I realized what it was. It was while singing Jesus, Lover of My Soul, the part that goes […]

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Between

I’m taking my 4 hour break between tutoring at It’s a Grind in Cypress.  Just had a conversation with an old man.  I don’t know how the conversation started haha but some things I got out of it: – It’s not all work or all play.  It’s bits and pieces; find a way to make […]

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New

My beloved Macbook is dying.  I took it in to the clinic aka Apple and the doctor aka genius said it is just too old to handle the new system and applications.  All I can do now is put it to sleep aka recycle.  For now I am using my dad’s laptop.  It’s a strange […]

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On my mind

I am blogging from my phone since my computer refuses to cooperate with me haha. That in itself is cool haha! For me at least. I’m in a funk. Funkity funk funk funk. Haha. I feel foolish and childish. I’ve lost my taste for things that were delicious to me before. I don’t feel like […]

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Requiem

Hmm.  I found this as a draft from a couple months ago.  I don’t know why I hadn’t published it haha.  It’s a little sad. ____________________________________________________ June 5 A high school friend passed away this Monday.  His dad had passed a couple years back, leaving him with his mom and little sister.  Now it’s just […]

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Unequal

I always used to assume that if I didn’t get something done today, I would have time tomorrow.  I learned two things from this misconception. 1. A big time slot or one free day does not equal the same amount of time spread out over a span of a few days.  Why?  Because: 2. The […]

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