Worst Advice of the Day

From before the time I can remember, my mom raised me within a wall of ‘be careful’s. It was born from her acknowledgement of her own clumsiness. She wasn’t really telling *me* to be careful, but rather herself. She’d whisper it to herself under her breath, but not low enough for her toddler to hear. […]

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God Never Threw Me a Bone

God never threw me a bone. Every time I asked for a sign, I got none. Every time I asked for a miracle, I got none. Every time I reached the end of my freaking rope, I cried out for help. It freaking sucked. You ever feel like that? Like you’ve done everything you could […]

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Mezcla

Having the hardest time writing support letters. On a funner note, went surfing for the second time. Had a BLAST. Saw a seal too!! Caught a couple waves. Almost died trying to catch others. Looking to buy a wetsuit and a board. Craigslist, here I come! On a deeper note, had a beautiful conversation over […]

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Remembrance

I visited some archived entries from April 2013, a year ago. I came across this: (April 13, 2103) I am about go to the last general session of a woman’s conference.  I have one thing. Dad, teach me to hope again.  Show me again how you look at me.  Remind me your gaze.  Awaken my heart […]

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Base

Feeling broken at the moment. Lots of thoughts and emotions going through my mind. Feeling like he’s calling me, drawing me, yearning for me. Feeling the desire to answer, but not sure… how. Funny ’cause this was, used to be all I knew how to do. But right now, feeling like a little girl, a […]

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Here

I didn’t realize I had no vision until last night. It explained so much. It explained why I did things that weren’t… conventionally Christian. Why I didn’t do things that were. This is my blog so continue reading at your risk. I honestly did not and do not give two hoots about another person’s faith. […]

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