Remembrance

I visited some archived entries from April 2013, a year ago. I came across this: (April 13, 2103) I am about go to the last general session of a woman’s conference.  I have one thing. Dad, teach me to hope again.  Show me again how you look at me.  Remind me your gaze.  Awaken my heart […]

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Suffocate

I have no time to want. I have no capacity to want Jesus right now. Never have I felt this… needy. All I see and feel and know is how much I need him now. It’s a very sober feeling. Not capricious. Not lighthearted. Not desirous. Desperate. That’s the only word I can think of to […]

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What The

I feel like it’s been “that time of month” for a month. Been roller coastering through laughter, crying, and everything next to, in between, above, below, within, and whatever other prepositions I can’t think of right now. Very interesting. There’s no time to evaluate it. There’s nothing to evaluate. Just… observe. Watch myself fall apart. […]

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Base

Feeling broken at the moment. Lots of thoughts and emotions going through my mind. Feeling like he’s calling me, drawing me, yearning for me. Feeling the desire to answer, but not sure… how. Funny ’cause this was, used to be all I knew how to do. But right now, feeling like a little girl, a […]

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Here

I didn’t realize I had no vision until last night. It explained so much. It explained why I did things that weren’t… conventionally Christian. Why I didn’t do things that were. This is my blog so continue reading at your risk. I honestly did not and do not give two hoots about another person’s faith. […]

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11/10

I got in my car, sat a sec, and breathed a prayer. … I love you the same as the first day. And it hit me. Today is five years later. Happy birthday to me.

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